I've been in a number of relationships, actually... None with guys, and all long distance.

Without going into too much detail, it was a incredibly hard time in my life for about 2 years. I didn't know who I was, where I belonged, and got mixed up in the wrong "crowd" (theoretically speaking. Not actually a crowd, just a crowd as in... a really bad phase.) The first relationship I ever got in was with a girl I had been talking to online to since I was 12, this happened when I was 14 and we were together for about 2 months - i dumped for her someone prettier.
Cruel, I know - but it was a hard time in my life and I had no idea what I was doing. So of course, me and previous said girl stopped talking, and I got with this "prettier" girl. She used me, treated me like kitten, really got into my head and messed with me badly. She broke up with me for someone else. Karma, huh? So of course I was devistated. I had thought she was the "love of my life" and all of that stuff. But I got angry, started to resent her, eventually hated her and realized I never loved her, that she was only scheming me. Turns out I was just young, y'know? Sure I was 14, the relationship lasted 6 embarrassing months, but I was never in love with her - just infatuated. Started sending her hate mail and resented everything she did and said especially when i realized the whole time she was messing with my head, but i suppose we all had those kind of relationships.
A lot of all of this happened in the same year. Crazy, right?

Like i said: hard time in my life. got mixed in with the wrong people. even if they weren't' in real life, or even in the same state as me (far from it actually.)
Now i'm better, BUUUUT, i've come to the conclusion that I never loved any of them. I was young minded, let myself be controlled and easily led and I had a a lot of growing up to do. Stuff like that, and really it was all embarrassing as hell.
I realize, (because I would wonder it myself.. if I was on the other side of the lines here and was reading this from someone else. Maybe i'm just nosy

) that the first sentence may of raised some... questions about orientations and what not? I've never dated any guys, actually. Now that I, after a long time of being easily led, i'm starting to actually become myself and grow into a much more mature person, I do hope to find someone I really like and someone who likes me for me - whether it be a guy or a girl, ... or a pokemon... haha.

Basically, if I love someone, whether they might be, it's just that. Doesn't matter.