98 replies to this topic

[questdrivencollie]

Thanks ^^ You too

[questdrivencollie]

Well, break's just about over, time to get to stop lazing around on the computer and consoles all day and get back to work.

 

Got some tests to register and study for, and aside from that I want to look into a part time job. I do have a small job already, that counts as employment and all, but it's not quite part time and pays less than minimum wage. Really, more than anything, it's just something I can have on my resume that will look good to potential employers.

 

I'm just posting here to let myself know that I have a plan of action and all that...because school was like a form of security for me, something I'm used to. Now I don't really have that, and I'm not sure what I want to do for college yet, if I end up going.

[questdrivencollie]

Welp, guilty pleasure time!

Look at this video I found today and can't stop watching:

 

It's just...the person who made this did an excellent job 0_0 And the song tttly fits the character rofl

[questdrivencollie]

Huh. Why did I write all this vulnerable stuff? Like, I initially wrote this blog to vent and all, but I feel like I gave too much information on some things...like, "you're how old and just graduated from a GED program?" <.<

Well, I am working on life and continuing to improve myself and do what's needed. If only so I feel like less of a loser, haha. (Except I'm up at nearly 4 AM writing this. Hoo boy. Me and sleep are not friends.)

So I'm looking for a job now and managed to get an interview. I really want this job, so that was encouraging. And, hey, progress. I feel like the effort I've put in since last year is really paying off. I'm beginning to get somewhere. So long as I spend every week day making good progress to one of my main goals, I can be satisfied with myself.
Still need to figure out college.

I miss the simplicity of my childhood.

[questdrivencollie]

Sometimes I feel so intensely embarrassed that I want to disappear. Like, no, nope, didn't do that, you never heard of me. I totally didn't do that. 

 

Help, I fail at life 

 

I think I'm either going to clean house or take a walk. My dog would like a walk, and I need to clear my head.

[Win-chan]

What happened? (You don't have to say if you don't want to, just asking)

[questdrivencollie]

Haha, nothing big. Just I called one if the places I left an application with and I feel like I made an idiot of myself on the phone. I hate talking on the phone...

So I'm just being dramatic, really. Maybe it was just that on top of the discouragement of finding out today that I didn't get the job at the pet store. (At the same time, I'm still proud of myself. I never got quite that far before, even if I didn't make it this time. I mean, I must have done something right.)

Edited by questdrivencollie, 10 February 2015 - 04:05 AM.

[questdrivencollie]

I hate when these things happen and build up and in spite of what I want to do or feel my brain is in "can I do anything right?" mode. Like, brain, stop being so affected by minor setbacks. So yeah, the last week wasn't as productive as it could have been, you did a few things you thought were dumb but they weren't as bad as all that, and you didn't get the job. But please please please stop making me have an existential crisis over it. I need to sleep, darn it.

[questdrivencollie]

Quarter life crisis sucks.

[questdrivencollie]

Haven't been able to do piano practice in months. Even if I can't do lessons right now (no money =/), I guess I should get back to practicing. I would hate to forget everything I learned =( And I can already think of some pieces I'd love to play again.


Oh, and I'm so damn glad that tomorrow is Friday. This week has sucked money butt. Hard.

[BakeNeko-Chan]

I think I'm beginning to fall into the same cycle I was caught in for like half of last year. Which was, spend the week days in a very anxious and almost depressed state and when the weekend hit just let it all go and be in a super good mood. Until Monday hit and it all began again.

 

 

I used to go through cycles like that all the time for years, being depressed or anxious or angry for no real reason. It was bad and I felt like I'd never get out of it. You're definitely not alone. It's only in the last six months or so that I've managed to move past that. I'm not sure what really got me out of it, but I think it was mostly because I don't feel quite so useless as I did before, and a little bit more of a productive individual overall. Of course that's not so say I'm totally over it because I still often have times where I want to do more and be more, but I just try to keep myself busy as best I can so I don't fall back into the pattern.

Edited by BakeNeko-Chan, 02 March 2015 - 07:48 PM.

[questdrivencollie]

Glad to know I'm not the only one. I guess it's just life, eh.

And yeah, I try to push myself to work my butt off during the week and as long as I feel useful I'm happy. But it doesn't take much for my illusion of usefulness to shatter. =P 

I know having a job comes with it's own challenges and stresses, but I look forward to having something more tangible to push myself towards. I feel like I'll feel more useful once I manage to get a job.

Edited by questdrivencollie, 03 March 2015 - 01:42 AM.

[questdrivencollie]

Somehow I've taken an interest in the Dragon Ball series. I don't know how...oookay, actually I do. I blame Dragon Ball Z Abridged. (Which is super awesome, BTW! Check it out!) Since the abridged is a parody, I got to wondering how the actual dialogue on some parts went and took to looking up some clips...and somehow that got me interested in checking out the entire series. I'm still working on the first Dragon Ball series right now. Unlike the first Naruto anime, it seems to be fairly easy to find the uncut version online.

I honestly never thought this series would be something I'd have much interest in....seriously.

 

This in the midst of the several other series I'm trying to keep track of, of course. I was reading/catching up on Magi before this came up. And I still am! I just got sidetracked all of a sudden. You never know when that's going to happen, I guess.

[Win-chan]

Hahah that's so funny! I've never really been interested in Dragon Ball... But who knows!

[questdrivencollie]

I always thought it was just about fighting. And I guess it mostly is. But there's character development and interaction, too, and I think that's probably what caught my attention. 

[BakeNeko-Chan]

I always thought it was just about fighting. And I guess it mostly is. But there's character development and interaction, too, and I think that's probably what caught my attention. 

 

Yeah, I don't know what it is about Dragonball. Something about it is just oddly entertaining. It's the kind of thing I normally wouldn't like, but it was kind of my gateway to anime the way Naruto was my gateway to manga.

[questdrivencollie]

 

 

 

My April Fools prank And the best part about it is everyone got a laugh out of it

 

I pulled it at church, too. I help with the youth group, so I glued some eyes to the soda bottles. (The youth group almost always has snacks or at least something to drink.)

[questdrivencollie]

So, there was a bank robbery in my town today. The guy killed the bank teller and so far as I'm aware from the news reports, the police are still looking for him.

Of course all our doors are locked here. (I always make sure they are in general.) A little worried about my mom, she's a cab driver and all over town.

[Liu bie]

So, there was a bank robbery in my town today. The guy killed the bank teller and so far as I'm aware from the news reports, the police are still looking for him.

Of course all our doors are locked here. (I always make sure they are in general.) A little worried about my mom, she's a cab driver and all over town.

Pray if you feel bad and fear, praying will ease your spirit.

[questdrivencollie]

Olo, I am back. I don't do much on this site lately, do I? =P

 

Ummmmm. Took my SAT test, waiting on my scores, still need to really look into college, still don't have a damned job, and oh yeah--I'm finally going to begin working on my driver's liscense.

So yeah, still have no damn idea what I'm doing and still stressing the hell out over it. Yay me.

 

I'll get there, and I'm not as clueless as I used to be. I'll survive. Just gotta prioritize and take one step at a time, I guess. I'm going to see if there are any career centers nearby where I can go and ask for advice and just ask questions.

Job hunting, just got to keep applying and puting myself out there and I'll get something eventually.

Edited by questdrivencollie, 11 June 2015 - 12:36 PM.