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In this blog I highly doubt I'll talk about my personal life BUT I will talk about past experiences. The point of this blog is to really express myself in a musical sense. I want to tell you how certain songs/lyrics made me feel.
I want to show how I get over break ups. How I feel joy. How I feel angry. All through the use of music. I listen to all types of music besides heavy metal.
When I was 16, I was an all A's student. Did great in school and made my parents proud. I had a good attitude all the things a parent could ask for. My brother's and sisters all had their degrees and masters. I had to compete with them. So I did all the asked. I had friends I would do anything for. If they called I would be ready and waiting. Some people even hated me. They called me "Miss Perfect." I would admit that I'm somewhat a perfectionist. But with all that said, I forgot about myself. I wanted to be "Miss Perfect" and do all they asked. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if to go to college, if to go into the working world and with everyone pressuring me to do something with myself and plus I had just gotten out of a relationship @ 16. I became depressed that is until I heard a Rihanna song called "Question Existing" and to be honest it spoke to me in more ways that one. I'll break down some the lyrics and explain.
Take off my shirt, loosen the buttons and undo my skirt
Stare at myself in the mirror
Take me apart, piece by piece
Sorrow decrease, pressure release
When I listened to this first verse I shed a tear. It told me to let me go self for a change. Look at my life and examine myself and try to find what I was doing wrong. Why am I not happy?
I put in work
Did more than called upon, more than deserved
When it was over, did I wind up hurt?
Yes, but it taught me, before a decision, ask this question first
This reminded me of all the work I did for people or my so called friends. I was always on call. It also reminded me of my boyfriend at the time who we had just broken up. In the end I was hurt by betrayal and deceit.
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing
Who am I living for?
Is this my limit? Can I endure some more?
Chances are given, question existing
At this point is what really sent me into an array of emotions. I began asking myself these questions. Can I endure some more? Who am I living for? Is it me? My friends? My parents?
Take off my cool
Show them that under here, I'm just like you
Do the mistakes that may make me a fool
Or a human with loss
This verse is what I wanted to say to people who thought me to be perfect. I make mistakes too. I'm just like you. I'm not some perfect girl. I'm not even good at math. I broke multiple things belonging to my mom. I spilt drink. I said things that shouldn't be said. I made mistakes.
And with them a loss, round of applause
Take the abuse, sometimes it feels like they want me to lose
It's entertainment, is that an excuse?
No, but the question that lingers, whether win or lose
The final verse(not really but the other lyrics are just the chorus)is what hit the nail on the head. I had often felt in that time of my life that some of my friends wanted me to fail. To confine me to their dreams of me failing. Sometimes they even laughed behind my back but the last line in this verse drove it home for me. Whether to win or lose? Do I give in and fail or do something worthwhile with my life and show them I can be a better person than they are.
In all the song made me realize what my priorities were. Who I should trust. That I should live for myself and not anyone else. I realized I have one life and instead of wasting it away on doing what people wanted me to do. I made my own goal and path. Today I'm successful. I have a great job, and I own my own home at 22.
Note: This all happened when I was 16-17. I'll share more each day. :) Feel free to post about how songs made you feel in certain situations. I would love to hear.
Edited by Baka chan, 19 September 2014 - 02:28 AM.
