Now here's the thing, I don't want to anger anyone, or insult anyone, or your beliefs, or anything that would cause you any displeasure.
If somehow I do by what I'm writing here, then I sincerely apologize. And rather than replying to this thread and becoming more angry, I say ignore it entirely, don't respond at all. Once again I don't want to anger anyone, I just want some answers and some help. Honestly.
I decided to post this on this thread because to me, you men and women are smarter than what I've encountered on different forums or social media websites.
You see about a month ago my brother in law's brother died. Once again I point out that English isn't my native tongue, so I'm not sure if brother in law is correct. My sister's husband's brother is what I mean.
Now truth be told I wasn't close to him, but it affected me more than I wanted it.
This event got me thinking about life and death, and much more. Now I'm not an idiot, it's not like I wasn't aware that this is life. We're born, we live and we die.
But until that day I never really thought about it, I just preferred to not think about it. Just live my life.
My problem is that I can't stop thinking about it. I have so many questions that I don't have an answer.
And I'm not cleaver enough to figure it out. Now I'm not asking you answer my questions, because I realize that's not really possible since even you don't know either. But maybe hearing what you think will somehow make me stop.
Once again do not take this is an insult.
Now I believe in God. Just not the God, that we've learned from the Bible. I do believe in a higher being simply because the way I see it, you can't look at this universe and the way it works and how it is, and not think that someone or something created it. The way I see it, it's not possible for the universe that we know today to just somehow be an accident, all of it just random. To make things work in a certain way and work in that way always. And other things but I don't want to make this thread any longer.
My problem is that I can't stop thinking about the fact that one day everyone I know and love will be gone, and I will be gone as well. And there's nothing that I can do to stop any of this.
I keep thinking about what's next? Is there an afterlife? Or there's nothing? And if there is an afterlife, then what's the point of this life? And I don't mean just our lives as humans, but everything that is matter? What's the point of this universe? What's our point? Why do we even exist? Is this a much larger game that our minds can't even beginning to comprehend? Is this some sort of experiment? Is this even real? Yeah I went there. What is all for? What's the point of life if it dies?
And once again I point out that I'm not here to start a fight or insult you in any way, and if what you read did insult you. Then I apologize.
I just seek your thoughts. Because my own are driving me insane. Honestly today I woke up and the very first thought was what one day all of this will be over.
And I admit I need help. Don't really like saying this, but the way I see it, admitting your faults is part of the solution to fix yourself.
So what do you believe?
Oh and I do have to point out again, that I didn't make this thread to fight with any of you or to start a fight between any of you. So if you didn't like my post or disagree with it or anything anyone would say, then don't reply and move along.
Thank you.