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[Shadow Wolf]

Hey Luis, how are you doing ?

Everything's good. Facing a living hell (though is more like a difficult challenge) in the new job, but I believe I'll get through it eventually. I'll get into details on the post. But apart from that, everything's good. How about you?

If you want to, I'll help you out with it then
Though, I never watched the show but I see it on tv commercials...... and it looks boring but I'll see that way to die if you have requested it

:O Are you sure you want to help me with that? Hmm... I think you might want to actually look for that way to die before deciding if you want to help me out with it or not, hahahahahahahahaha.

Anyway, I'll go ahead and post it here, just to help with that. That way, you'll see what I mean with my previous statement.

Link --Click here to view--

http://1000waystodie...wiki/Ichi-boned

Ah, and no worries. I won't ask you to watch the show. It was just that particular way to die.

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Have you ever feel like the odds are stacked against you?
Well, that's pretty much my situation in my job. To put it simple, my task is to measure the weight of some products and place them in a conveyor belt where they are packed.

Now, why I consider this a challenge? I have been placed in the last machine which sends these products. What does this means? That, not only is slightly faster than the other ones, but also that whenever I have to place the products in the conveyor belt, chances are that the belt is full with the products from the previous machines. I have to act faster and be very aware of not placing on product above another by mistake. Along with some other challenges (the fact that my co-worker is very competitive and gets easily angry if I fall behind despite the fact that I've only been working for 4 days and the fact that the one who works with the machine that sends the products tends to screw up a lot), I feel like this job might give me a run for my money, to put it like that.

I'm not sure if to keep going or to quit and seek another job. If I quit, I have to consider the fact that my roommate might get angry at me, since this is my first job and I'm actually bringing money. If I stay, I have to face this challenge everyday and endure it, maybe until they change me to another machine, or until they release me from the job (fire me). Hopefully none of those two options will happen and I might find myself actually getting used to the job and eventually, considering it easy.

That aside, life is pretty much a routine. However, there is something I miss right now in my life. Funny huh? How someone just pops in in your life and all of a sudden, you are already missing them. Good friends, kind people, people you like, whoever leaves a nice impression in you.



Take care people! Later!

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 25 November 2012 - 02:52 AM.

[James S Cassidy]

Hang in there. I face people everyday from on here to on a normal outing. Some person trying to step up and take me on and every time I just beat them down.

I still have my own scars to bare and many more challenges to face on this path called Life.

[Shadow Wolf]

It's kinda funny that you write this James. Considering that your battles are far more... challenging than mine, I sometimes wonder if I''m still just a boy. Anyway, I am working with another co-worker and things are improving a lot. Not only has he helped me learn a few techniques, but he also challenges me (in a good way, of course) to keep improving. So yeah, I guess in the end, it was just changing the team.

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Well, it's been a while, but a few things happened:

-As I mentioned earlier, things at work are improving a bit, which to me is really good. Thing is, I might want to consider getting another job if things keep up like this (and by "Like This", I mean that I've only been working three days a week, probably because of the time of the year and the low production at the moment). Still, there's no guarantee that I find a new job quickly, so I guess I'll stick to this one for now.

-Yesterday, since I got off from work early, I took the chance to call home and wish Mom a happy birthday. She was so happy to hear it and we managed to talk for a while (I'm... not too talkative by phone so my call usually last less than 30 mins). Thing is, she had left me a disturbing message on facebook not too long ago (which is the reason that I don't use it anymore), and well.... there are a few issues with my family... Even so, I'm glad that she was happy.

-Finally, well.... there are a few friends that I met here and that I miss them a lot, so I hope that they are doing well and that they know that this naive wolf says Hi.



Take care people!

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

[narulsaku]

hey louis. i missed you. so i am glad that everything is going good with you. good luck for the next joa and am i allowed to ask what job are you doing now ?

[James S Cassidy]

[narulsaku]

awasome XD

[Shadow Wolf]

Prem: Well, is not that big of a job, really. All I have to do is get the correct weight on steaks and then place them on a belt that packs them up. It's a bit tricky to me, though, since the slices are thin, and since I'm the "nervous" type, the pieces can sometimes crumble in my hands. Of course, my "new" co-workers (I am working now on a different machine) have shown me some tricks, so I'm getting the hang of it. Now is all up to picking up speed. Thanks for the good wishes.

And of course, I must ask: how's everything going (too lazy atm to check your blog, but I'll get to it soon XD)?

James: What the...?

*watches video*

Hahahahahahaha, nice one man!

Hope you're also doing well. I might consider getting at least a 3 month gold card to play.

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Not much going on. Thinking of getting Star Ocean: The Last Hope once again and see if I can get Kingdom Hearts 2 (but I might have to look hard for that one). Also, I may also plan to start preparing the Christmas gifts for a few friends.

EDIT: Just one more random note... These last days I've been feeling like something isn't right. I'm not sure how to explain it, but something tells me that something (either good or bad) is about to happen soon; and from the looks of it, I don't think I'm ready for it, whatever it is.

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 30 November 2012 - 09:49 PM.

[James S Cassidy]

James: What the...?

*watches video*

Hahahahahahaha, nice one man!

Hope you're also doing well. I might consider getting at least a 3 month gold card to play.

I thought you might like that. Maybe cheer you up cause you said you were kind of stressed. I am not doing so well myself. Right now I have a bad headache and not feeling too well. Plus I am stressed about a few things. No, the forum thing is not bothering me. In fact, it is the least of my worries.

Just stressed from finding a job and my mother nagging.

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Not much going on. Thinking of getting Star Ocean: The Last Hope once again and see if I can get Kingdom Hearts 2 (but I might have to look hard for that one). Also, I may also plan to start preparing the Christmas gifts for a few friends.

EDIT: Just one more random note... These last days I've been feeling like something isn't right. I'm not sure how to explain it, but something tells me that something (either good or bad) is about to happen soon; and from the looks of it, I don't think I'm ready for it, whatever it is.

I know how you feel. I sense a change in the wind myself. I hope it is something good. Take care though, man.

[James S Cassidy]

If you could pick one song to describe yourself, what would it be?

This would be me.

[Shadow Wolf]

You're worth saving my friend. All who are willing to give their all to help people feel better deserve to be saved.

As for me.... well, there are many. But at the moment, I think this one fits my life:



Anyway, I know you have a few things at the moment, so I hope that everything improves eventually.

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So lately, I've been thinking about something related to a current situation. To put it simple, once again, thanks to my wrong use of words, I have found myself in an awkward situation with a friend. However, this time, I don't wish to repeat my mistakes of the past. So at the moment, after the last conversation, I decided to give my friend some space. I don't wish my friend to feel like I'm putting pressure to the situation (meaning that I want things to flow naturally in our friendship. After all, that's a common quality in friendship, correct? ).

But my question is, if after the time my friend doesn't say a thing, should I touch the issue again, or should I just drop it and start a conversation about a common topic?

Hahahaha, I suck at socializing.

[narulsaku]

hey louis . saw you joa. i think its tricky though i couldnt understand it. XD. AND what happen with your friend ?

[James S Cassidy]

You're worth saving my friend. All who are willing to give their all to help people feel better deserve to be saved.

As for me.... well, there are many. But at the moment, I think this one fits my life:

Anyway, I know you have a few things at the moment, so I hope that everything improves eventually.

Thanks.

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So lately, I've been thinking about something related to a current situation. To put it simple, once again, thanks to my wrong use of words, I have found myself in an awkward situation with a friend. However, this time, I don't wish to repeat my mistakes of the past. So at the moment, after the last conversation, I decided to give my friend some space. I don't wish my friend to feel like I'm putting pressure to the situation (meaning that I want things to flow naturally in our friendship. After all, that's a common quality in friendship, correct? ).

But my question is, if after the time my friend doesn't say a thing, should I touch the issue again, or should I just drop it and start a conversation about a common topic?

Hahahaha, I suck at socializing.

Thomas Edison once said when he failed 10,000 times to make a lightbulb. "I didn't fail 10,000 times. I just found 10,000 ways how not to make it."

So think of it like that. Learn from it. Adapt and you can never fail if you don't give up.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 12 December 2012 - 09:46 PM.

[Shadow Wolf]

narulsaku: 'Sup Prem? Well, there is nothing wrong with her. I think the one with the wrong issues is me actually, hahahaha. But anyway, as I stated earlier, it was probably due to my wrong use of words that we have lost communication; so I'm currently assuming that what I said last probably made our communication a bit awkward.... history tends to repeat itself in my life, hehehehe.

James: No prob. And yeah, I'll keep that in mind. If I'm not mistaken, you're also going through a similar situation, so back at you with those words and look forward my friend.


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Well, this week has been a tough one, but the end of it erases everything else, which is resumed in these words: Hehehe, nothing beats the smile your friends have when you surprise them with a gift.

[James S Cassidy]

James: No prob. And yeah, I'll keep that in mind. If I'm not mistaken, you're also going through a similar situation, so back at you with those words and look forward my

Not anymore.

[Shadow Wolf]

James: No prob. And yeah, I'll keep that in mind. If I'm not mistaken, you're also going through a similar situation, so back at you with those words and look forward my

Not anymore.

*notices that the word friend is not in the quote*

Not your.... friend anymore? :O

*The wolf walks away looking down as the moon disappears between the clouds*

[narulsaku]

so she is not talking to you till now. if that so try from your side.

[James S Cassidy]

*notices that the word friend is not in the quote*

Not your.... friend anymore? :O

*The wolf walks away looking down as the moon disappears between the clouds*

No, the "similar situation." I am not going through it anymore. I dumped her and decided to walk forward.

Who said anything about not being your friend anymore?

[James S Cassidy]

Honor - Choices that you make, reflect of whom you truly are
Courage - Rise above the masses, live your life complete and strong
Compassion - Is the power that must be used for the good of all
Loyal - To the ones in my care, standing true for what the cause

My soul has been searching, longing for something
I see my true self and I have learned well

Honesty - There are no shades of grey, only truth as it can be
Sincere - Don't need to give my word, to speak of such, is the same thing
Courtesy - There's no need to prove strength, even respect your enemies
Values - This is the code I feel, emotions without words, can speak

[Shadow Wolf]

No, the "similar situation." I am not going through it anymore. I dumped her and decided to walk forward.

Who said anything about not being your friend anymore?

Ah, no... don't take it seriously. *Sighs* That's what get me into all these misunderstandings... me and my big mouth.

Anyway, I was just implying that when you quoted me, the word "friend" kinda banished from the quote (probably one of those accidental clicks of the "Backspace" key), so I kinda wanted to make something out of it. But it went very wrong, so I'm sorry for that.

Anyway, I'm glad that you're moving forward too James. After all, that's the way to find new chapters, right?

Prem: I'm not sure if I got what you said correctly. To put it simple: I kinda told her that I like her, and after that, we haven't talked to each other. Now, I did say that I don't think I'm ready to "get to know someone better" yet (considering the fact that I'm still kinda thinking about my past intimate friendship, I want some time to heal and for myself too), but still, saying that you like someone is quite the powerful words.

Anyway, what I'm not sure to do is that:

1-if I should just wait for now (and maybe by this, I can give her some space to both do her daily routine and to think about what she wishes to do),
2-if I should just talk to her casually (without bringing up the topic, though there's a chance that she may not reply)
or 3-Approach her and speak about what I said.

That's what's keeping my mind busy at the moment.

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These last days, I've been feeling tired even after a good night sleep (much like if someone beats you up while you're sleeping or something like that). Normally I would brush it off, but considering the fact that I'm working and that it's been one week already and I'm still feeling like this, I'm starting to consider either going to a doctor or at least taking a supplementary medicine (like vitamins or something like that).

That aside, I'm happy to know that I have all my gifts for my friends ready. All I need now is their addresses and my next paycheck so I can send them the gifts.

[James S Cassidy]

Ah, no... don't take it seriously. *Sighs* That's what get me into all these misunderstandings... me and my big mouth.

Anyway, I was just implying that when you quoted me, the word "friend" kinda banished from the quote (probably one of those accidental clicks of the "Backspace" key), so I kinda wanted to make something out of it. But it went very wrong, so I'm sorry for that.

Anyway, I'm glad that you're moving forward too James. After all, that's the way to find new chapters, right?

Yeah...I got a message from my former fiance who I haven't talked to in a year. I didn't even read it. Getting the message alone made me feel....no word can describe it. I almost broke my sanity. It's funny how you want to live on from the past and can't cause it just follows you. Even when I try burying it.

As strong as you say I am...I am very weak at the moment.

As for the joke...umm...well I am not mad, but maybe next time make an indication of it being a joke? Like "loljk" or something. My mind is not working at the moment.