Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 09 September 2013 - 06:07 AM
Who wants a broke ass man? Who wants a man who is an utter failure and can't even buy you real gifts?
Sometimes, "love" is only measured by the size of your wallet, not the size of your heart.
Edited by James S Cassidy, 09 September 2013 - 06:12 AM.
Keeping the promise
Posted 09 September 2013 - 01:42 PM
If that's the case of someone you know, then they can't be more wrong.
How shallow for them to think like that. As for the second argument, no one is a failure unless they convince themselves that they are (and I say this out of experience). Gifts? That's interest and not true love. Remember the conversation we had yesterday with John and keep those words in mind, for those are the arguments that truly matter. :)
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 11 September 2013 - 12:27 AM
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 15 September 2013 - 07:21 AM
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 16 September 2013 - 10:24 AM
There are so many things people take for granted. So many things that I wanted. I guess you can say some people will never understand what it is like to be in that position. What it is like to want something so bad only to realize there is no way you can have it. You look at others and you wonder "How can they be so lucky?" Others look at you and say "You'll get yours someday," but it don't feel like that does it? It is so easy for them to say such a thing when they already have it. Yeah I know what that is like. You're not sure if you want to be angry at them or sad about yourself. What can I say on this subject? I am not going to say to others that "Someday...blah blah blah" because I know how you feel about it. It's true you never know what the future will bring, but how long can you keep going?
Despite the pain and the lack of it...the wanting and the sadness and jealousy over other's...we keep wanting it.
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive...
Edited by James S Cassidy, 16 September 2013 - 10:51 AM.
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 16 September 2013 - 05:33 PM
It's one of those days...
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 17 September 2013 - 05:49 PM
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 24 September 2013 - 08:50 PM
Coming home tomorrow. Not too happy with the way things are at the moment, but I can't do anything about that. I don't know how to make things better. Maybe it is not my place to. Hopefully the podcast will be in full swing again or something. Tried to keep in contact with some friends, but half the time got no response.
This trip let me reflect on a few things and showed me a side of people I never noticed before. Ever had a moment where someone told you that "You are too much living in the past" and yet they are the ones who cannot let go? Kind of ironic how much of a hypocrite we can be. Made me wonder what am I going to be as a father or grandfather. I have to wonder whwther or not I will that long at all. There are people who I miss very much now. People who I wished I could have starteda life with, but know I can't. I am not meant to be in their life. So at times I have to wonder...how long before they disappear and forget about me? Maybe that's why I live in my past because I have no future with them with my memory of them is all that remains.
Some people are lucky to spend years with that one they love and care about. If you only knew that somewhere someone else has been forgotten so you can have a life with that person. When I see the ones I love just going through life and question qhether I have an effect or not....perhaps I am jsut being selfish. Perhaps I just wanted to feel important for once. To feel like they do. That lucky person who they get to see everyday. If they only knew what I would give to trade places with them for a while. To feel like the special one for once instead of the unlucky one wishing it was me.
If you are one of the lucky ones and know what it feels to be special, take a moment to appreciate that. You don't know how many people wish they could be like you and have the same things as you. Sometimes haunting you in the middle of the night til the point where you can't sleep. It's not easy and there really nothing to soothe the pain other than the cure itself. You don't know how many nights I spent going to bed crying...wishing...hoping. Not much you can do about it though except keep going forward.
Lastly, one pieace of advice to those that are lucky. Please don't tell the unlucky ones that "You will gets yours someday." While I understand the sentiment, it's really more of an insult albeit unintentional. Imagine if it was you in their place and they said that to you while flaunting what they have. It hurts. Trust me, I know. This is especially true for someone who is older who has had years of it while you, so young, get exactly what they wanted. Something they would give up everything they own for. "Jealousy" doesn't really describe the feeling.
It just hurts. More than you can imagine.
Keeping the promise
Posted 25 September 2013 - 03:59 AM
Many times I have told you this one thing: You have loved in your life, and that is enough for me to tell you thatt you have been blessed with a loving relationship in your life. Yeah, at the present we're both searching for that special someone, but even though You are just tad older than me, you have had more joys in your life than I have. Yes, there are many things affecting you right now, but I can safely say that your life has had more good moments than my own life.
How I wish I could have experience all the good things that you have expeerienced in your life. How I wish I could have had someone who loved me with all their commitment and that gave me a reason to go forward in life while wishing for my happiness... heck, I wish I could see my mom each day again...
I said this earlier during the day my friend, instead of putting your focus on the things that you don't have, take a moment to see all the things that you have in your life and be thankful for each one of them. Take your thoughts away from the bad things and from the people who make you feel negative and shift that attention and that energy ionto all the good things that you can be grateful for in yoru life. And believe me, you have many, but many things to be grateful:
-Your podcast
-Your friends
-The fact that you're spending time with your family
-The fact that you're visiting another place
-The stuff that you recently bought that will arrive to you soon
-The fact that you're helping your friends grow
-The fact that you have a car
-The fact that you have a super-computer XD
-And the fact that you hold strongly to your hopes and beliefs.
Look at that, just a few minutes and I already listed 10 things that I know you can be grateful for.
Scott, life is not easy, but is meant to be abundant and happy. Because of this, we have to focus all of our attention in those good things and is following our bliss. Once again, I encourage you to watch the movie The Secret (and in fact, I encourage everyone who's currently reading this to watch this movie too). and, even if you don't believe what they say in the secret, I encourage you, like one of the people in this movie says. to find what makes you feel good and to think about it each day of your life.
What makes you feel bad does not deserve your attention nor your words. What makes you feel good, happy, and blessed, that is what deserves your total devotion and gratitude. :)
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 26 September 2013 - 02:06 AM
Me and my mother just had a huge fight. I really mean a huge fight to the point that she said she doesn't want to be my mother anymore. She wishes I would just leave and never come back.
I'm the Greatest Ever!!
Posted 26 September 2013 - 09:59 PM
Been there before...just a little less extreme. My mom when she's mad just tells me I should go live somewhere else.
That's not helping ^^; Uhh, give it sometime, you'll make up sooner or later
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 27 September 2013 - 07:37 AM
Been there before...just a little less extreme. My mom when she's mad just tells me I should go live somewhere else.
That's not helping ^^; Uhh, give it sometime, you'll make up sooner or later
My mother and I made up. We came to an understanding in that we both were high on emotion and said things that we really didn't mean. It was just bad timing.
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 27 September 2013 - 11:45 PM
If you don't do something, then you will never achieve anything. Some have said that insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results. I think true insanity is doing nothing, but expecting change.
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 28 September 2013 - 06:51 PM
What if the aura that I am feeling is causing me to absorb them?
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 29 September 2013 - 02:16 AM
You can think about a lot of things. Why we exists? Is there a god? When we die do we got to heaven or hell or nothing? We question the unknown all the time. A habit among humans. We are always curious, but sometimes we are afraid of the unknown. We are afraid to be wrong about things because what if something is bad and not good? What if what we get is not what we wanted? I have pondered this myself and have thought to myself: "Thinking like this drives a man insane," but sometimes, whether truth or a lie, we find comfort in it. Is it good to live a lie if it gives you comfort or is it better to live a truth and be in pain all the time from it?
I am not sure. We can only take so much pain before we snap. Everyone has limits. I just wonder what are mine? What just makes me sad is that when I get told to be myself, but sometimes the people I enjoy the most hate it when I am truly myself. So sadly, I hide myself away. Not telling anyone anything for fear of losing them. So is it much better to live a lie if it brings you comfort? I don't know, but sometimes I rather do that than the other option.
Bearded Priest of Norvos
Posted 29 September 2013 - 03:19 AM
Hey man just wanted to chime in here, honestly just do you, f 
ck everyone else. It might be harsh but if they don't want to chill with the real you you're better off without them. It might seem like forever but eventually you'll meet people who want to be with the real you and sh t will get better. That's just my 2 cents tho so take it with a grain of salt.
Edited by Muffins?, 29 September 2013 - 03:20 AM.
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 29 September 2013 - 03:49 AM
Hey man just wanted to chime in here, honestly just do you, f
It is good advice and for some situations it is a good one, but there are some situations that are a little bit more complicated. I did use this advice with some situations though and I have never looked back. I am not going to worry about those who do not worry about me.
Hmmm...let me put it this way.
Edited by James S Cassidy, 29 September 2013 - 03:51 AM.
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 29 September 2013 - 08:53 PM
I always liked this song...
Jounin
Posted 29 September 2013 - 09:06 PM
Nice edit...
Heaven and Earth Deity
Posted 29 September 2013 - 09:56 PM
No negativity. Things will be good again. Things will work out. I am going to take some time for myself and see the good the world has in it. I am thankful for thew good the world has given me and I want to see more. I want to see if I can go even farther. I wont be on the forum for a while. No offense to anyone. The podcast will still be going because that is what I love to do and I will do what I love cause it makes me happy.
Brand new day. Same old me with some...new things thrown in there. ^_^ I know in time things will be better. Things will work out. I know because I want them to. I know they will be. I know they are.
Thoughts become things.
Oh and just to show how things have changed. Here is a list of ten things that I am grateful for this site. I want to share because it will make me happier to share them. You can read them if you want or not. Maybe it will give you some inspiration.
Edited by James S Cassidy, 29 September 2013 - 10:00 PM.
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