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[MangaReader]

I didn't get to talk to him, but I thought I saw him on Skype yesterday

[Konohakitten]

I want to die now...Just end it all please. I can't do it anymore....my strength has left me. I can't even stand anymore. Can't get a girlfriend, can't get a job. I lost everything I could lose and they continue to take from me. People wonder why I have no confidence left....it's because they took that too.

James my heart goes out to you, it really does. I've read everything and while life at the moment for you isn't that great believe me when I say it doesn't last forever. I speak from experience. I know all to well what it's like to do your best, to think positive, to be a good person, and to still get the kitten end of the stick. I've seen my husband lose his job time and time again, due to how crappy things were in our home town. It seemed that right when he was making a name for himself his department was let go, or they were cleaning house. We were constantly living pay check to pay check. Then there were the times when he had no job at all. He had unemployment but it didn't do much for us. I've been dirt poor, almost homeless. I've had to go without eating for days so that my kids could go to bed with full tummies. It sucked, I felt like a failure as a mother, and my husband felt even worse since he was supposed to be the bread winner.

Things hit rock bottom one day when we decided to take the kids to the park, despite the fact that we had very little gas. John has always been Mr. Positive and he told me that it was a beautiful day and that we should be happy to have each other. So we went and Kaiden had a blast playing, but it broke my heart when the ice cream man came and he was the only kid that wasn't able to get something. He was just too young to understand that we had nothing, not one single penny. He got over it though and he continued to play. Once it started to get late we left for home but the car wouldn't start because we were completely out of gas. I was humiliated as John desperately tried to get our car to start. All I could do was asked myself why. What in the world had I done to live such a hard life? I was on the verge of tears when John was about to let the car coast down the street. Just as he was about to push the car a stranger asked if he could help. He was kind enough to drive John to the gas station down the street and bought us $20 of gas, he also gave John another $10 in cash and his phone number. He told John that if was interested in finding good work to give him a call.

We got home and John told me everything he and the man had spoke about. John decided right then and there that he was going to take him up on his offer. I broke down because this job was out of state and I was going to be left alone to hold down the fort. John told me that he was tired of living the way we were, and that this could be our big break. We had always been going through hard times it seemed. We were always in the poor house the entire time we lived in El Paso. So I said screw it, what more could we possibly lose?! I told myself that if life was going to kick me when I was down that I was going to kick right back, and I did. My kids and I survived without John for more then a month and half. I worked from home while taking care of the kids to bring in some much needed money. I was able to buy food with my little earnings and John found work after only being in Jal for one day. He sent money when he could and after what seemed like forever we moved to New Mexico. Now my life is the best it has ever been. John has made triple what he was making before, and in four months he's made what took him a year to make last year. My husband and I can now provide for our kids like we've never had and always wanted to.

So in short I know what it's like to just want to throw in the towel and say kitten it. Stay strong and continue to do your best, even when it seems that it does nothing. Every thought you send out effects your life good and bad, so don't give up James, continue to fight. I always told myself those nights when I thought things couldn't any worse that my life was meant to be freaking amazing because of how sh*tty it was at the moment, and you know what, I was right. I know I can only offer words of encouragement, but I'll also send some good vibes your way. Take care of yourself, don't give up, and know that in the end things always work out.

[MangaReader]

Happy Birthday

[James S Cassidy]

James my heart goes out to you, it really does. I've read everything and while life at the moment for you isn't that great believe me when I say it doesn't last forever. I speak from experience. I know all to well what it's like to do your best, to think positive, to be a good person, and to still get the kitten end of the stick. I've seen my husband lose his job time and time again, due to how crappy things were in our home town. It seemed that right when he was making a name for himself his department was let go, or they were cleaning house. We were constantly living pay check to pay check. Then there were the times when he had no job at all. He had unemployment but it didn't do much for us. I've been dirt poor, almost homeless. I've had to go without eating for days so that my kids could go to bed with full tummies. It sucked, I felt like a failure as a mother, and my husband felt even worse since he was supposed to be the bread winner.

Things hit rock bottom one day when we decided to take the kids to the park, despite the fact that we had very little gas. John has always been Mr. Positive and he told me that it was a beautiful day and that we should be happy to have each other. So we went and Kaiden had a blast playing, but it broke my heart when the ice cream man came and he was the only kid that wasn't able to get something. He was just too young to understand that we had nothing, not one single penny. He got over it though and he continued to play. Once it started to get late we left for home but the car wouldn't start because we were completely out of gas. I was humiliated as John desperately tried to get our car to start. All I could do was asked myself why. What in the world had I done to live such a hard life? I was on the verge of tears when John was about to let the car coast down the street. Just as he was about to push the car a stranger asked if he could help. He was kind enough to drive John to the gas station down the street and bought us $20 of gas, he also gave John another $10 in cash and his phone number. He told John that if was interested in finding good work to give him a call.

We got home and John told me everything he and the man had spoke about. John decided right then and there that he was going to take him up on his offer. I broke down because this job was out of state and I was going to be left alone to hold down the fort. John told me that he was tired of living the way we were, and that this could be our big break. We had always been going through hard times it seemed. We were always in the poor house the entire time we lived in El Paso. So I said screw it, what more could we possibly lose?! I told myself that if life was going to kick me when I was down that I was going to kick right back, and I did. My kids and I survived without John for more then a month and half. I worked from home while taking care of the kids to bring in some much needed money. I was able to buy food with my little earnings and John found work after only being in Jal for one day. He sent money when he could and after what seemed like forever we moved to New Mexico. Now my life is the best it has ever been. John has made triple what he was making before, and in four months he's made what took him a year to make last year. My husband and I can now provide for our kids like we've never had and always wanted to.

So in short I know what it's like to just want to throw in the towel and say kitten it. Stay strong and continue to do your best, even when it seems that it does nothing. Every thought you send out effects your life good and bad, so don't give up James, continue to fight. I always told myself those nights when I thought things couldn't any worse that my life was meant to be freaking amazing because of how sh*tty it was at the moment, and you know what, I was right. I know I can only offer words of encouragement, but I'll also send some good vibes your way. Take care of yourself, don't give up, and know that in the end things always work out.

That is an amazing story. Knowing me I would probably give you all the money I had.

I am happy you got the happy ending and things got better for you. At least you two had each other and stuck by each other. All I ever find is girl who dump me cause they can't take the emotional drama nor because I couldn't buy them the pair of earrings they wanted. It's hard finding someone that is willing to be with you through the good and bad that may come. I can only hope I find a wife who is just as special and loving as you are. I could face the world if I had that. She would be my confidence.

I find myself getting drunk and wasting away in my room. Crying till I fall asleep.

I hope there is a happy ending for me. I'd give anything for a happy ending.

Happy Birthday

Thanks.

X TD, Mangaready, Toasty...I'm fine...well as fine as I can be. I can't lie and say everything is okay, but I'll say that there are days where I feel like....well, how I felt that day. Thanks for worrying about me. I don't like bringing my drama out in the open, but I feel just like nothing I do is working. My life is never getting any better no matter how much effort I try to put in.

and yes, Mangareader I have tried through connections....they never called me back so to speak. So either they don't have a job or they don't want me working there.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 06 April 2013 - 09:04 PM.

[Toasty Warrior]

Thank goodness you're all right James, you had us worried there for a bit.

[MangaReader]

Good to have you back And no worries, sometimes you just gotta let it all out

[James S Cassidy]

There is a girl that I am in love with. Yes, she goes to this site. No, I won't tell you who it is because it is private and really sometimes it is better if they don't know.

So I had a dream....

In the dream I wake up in a bed and look around the room. It is different. It is like a light grey, but with black squares on the walls almost like in a Modern Art kind of looking room. I rub my face and try to think where I am. I then hear a voice: "Oh good, you're finally up. Spent all night drinking with your friends again?" I look up and she is there, the girl I am in love with, and she is standing in nothing, but panties and one of my shirts. (Don't worry this is not a sex dream, but it is a nice touch, Imagination. You know how to make me smile.) I get up and follow her into the kitchen where she is making breakfast. I tried to think and I realize I am in California. I walk behind her and hug her. She smiles and lays back against me: "You aren't hung over are you?" I replied. "No, just felt like telling you how much you mean to me and how happy I am to be here with you." She smiles. "Want some breakfast before work?" (Wait, I have a job? Now I KNOW this is a dream. jokes)

I say nothing really and just snuggle her neck and sigh in relief. She ask me "Something wrong?" I replied. "Just enjoying the moment." She smiles again. "You know, this is a good look for you. Maybe you should wear this to work." She laughs. "If by work you mean "bedroom" then sure, but I just finished washing it and had to dry it out some how." I looked puzzled. "Dryer broken again?" She nods. "Alright, we'll have to get a new one then." (Apparently, my mouth is working separate of my brain I don't remember ever have a dryer period.)

Fast Forward to me pulling up to work and I walk into the a studio. Not sure what it is, but I just know it is a game studio and we are working on our new game. A game based off a book I have written. I sit at meetings, do some work at my desk, but I can't help not looking at the portrait of me and my girl. I think to myself. "Do I deserve this? Here I got everything I wanted. I know some will say I do after all the crap, but...I hope I am not causing more problem for others." This is especially true, because I know what my girl has gone through and what she had to give up for me.

My friend Xander comes by and smacks me in the back of the head NCIS style. "You still sulking?" I replied. "No." He sits on my desk and flips the portrait. "You know, you always look so unhappy or unsure about life. Now that you finally have everything, you should be happy. Believe me, if anyone deserves it it's you. You put up with so much all these years. Bout time you had a chance to be happy yeah?" I just smiled and nodded. I snap out of it and ask "By the way, how is that Gothic viking game coming along?" "Good, but still can't think of a name. You should totally work with me. Jackson and Damien is there." Instead of saying something, I roll back to a drawer and pull out a folder. "What's this?" I said "Open it"

He opens in and looks through to find a sort of data stick (Although it was kind of clear) and all these drawings. "You worked on the game?" "Well, more like added to what was already there. I made some sketches and created some characters of my own if you don't mind. I have no clue where the story is going, but I thought I give any characters you need space to put in." He replies: "These are fantastic....wait, are these us?" I smile this huge grin and nod. "Dude, sweet. Thanks a lot, bro. I got to split though, you and *name removed* up for Saturday?" "Yes, got all the arrangements done." "Nice. See you later brother. Father Odin guide you." "Indeed, brother. Father Thor be with you as well."

He leaves. I get home early and start preparing for a romantic evening. I cook some Chateaubriand (Meat soaking in wine for 24 hours) and and prepare dinner. Sadly, the night doesn't start out right. She comes home crying. I go by the door to see her on the floor, back against the door crying in her knees. "What's wrong?" "I got fired" "Oh honey..." I sit next to her and hug her. "It's okay." "I don't get it. I gave them everything and they just drop me." I am actually completely stumped on what to say except for one thing. "They let go of the best girl in the world," I hold her tight, "but we will be fine. You're the best. There is nothing you can't do." She wipes her face. "Come on, I got a surprise for you." She nods and I take her by the hands and lead her into the room. She looks in awe at the decorations around the room and the dinner placement and roses and stuff. "What's this?"

I hug her again. "This is for you. For us. For giving me the best life I could ever ask for and hoping I do the same for in return." We eat dinner and make our way to the balcony and she smiles and closes her eyes and feel the breeze with the moon shining down. "Couldn't be a more perfect night, even though the day was kind of sh*tty." We laugh a little and I pull out a box. "I am about to make it better." She looks at me puzzled. I hand her the box and say "I want these nights to last forever." Basically I proposed marriage to her and the dreams ends at that.

Probably one of the best dreams I've had in a long time. I didn't want to wake up to be honest.

At the end of the dream though I had one final thought.
"Rebecca, Steph, etc etc. (listing of names) I will always keep you in my heart and love you everyday, but it is about time I made room for some new ones."

[MangaReader]

If you don't want us (or her specifically) to know right know, that's totally cool in my book. IMO though, I don't like the thought of falling for people online, that's just me though.

On the other note though... I've had dreams like that in the past before, though they've only involved my first true crush, which was also a heartbreaker :S I have never once ever been on a single date, unless Prom get's a special consideration.

Edited by MangaReader, 10 April 2013 - 03:31 AM.

[Konohakitten]

That is an amazing story. Knowing me I would probably give you all the money I had.

I am happy you got the happy ending and things got better for you. At least you two had each other and stuck by each other. All I ever find is girl who dump me cause they can't take the emotional drama nor because I couldn't buy them the pair of earrings they wanted. It's hard finding someone that is willing to be with you through the good and bad that may come. I can only hope I find a wife who is just as special and loving as you are. I could face the world if I had that. She would be my confidence.

I find myself getting drunk and wasting away in my room. Crying till I fall asleep.

I hope there is a happy ending for me. I'd give anything for a happy ending.

Finding the girls that only want to be with you during the good times are best left out of your life. No man deserves someone that is only going to be with them when things are great. You want someone who is only going to love you more and more, no matter how tough things get. So be glad that the women you've been in relationships with didn't work, they weren't meant for you. No matter what life throws you will find your constant, you will find that special person that will never leave your side. It hurts me know that you feel so alone, never forget James that there are ppl who care about you.

There is a girl that I am in love with. Yes, she goes to this site. No, I won't tell you who it is because it is private and really sometimes it is better if they don't know.

So I had a dream....

In the dream I wake up in a bed and look around the room. It is different. It is like a light grey, but with black squares on the walls almost like in a Modern Art kind of looking room. I rub my face and try to think where I am. I then hear a voice: "Oh good, you're finally up. Spent all night drinking with your friends again?" I look up and she is there, the girl I am in love with, and she is standing in nothing, but panties and one of my shirts. (Don't worry this is not a sex dream, but it is a nice touch, Imagination. You know how to make me smile.) I get up and follow her into the kitchen where she is making breakfast. I tried to think and I realize I am in California. I walk behind her and hug her. She smiles and lays back against me: "You aren't hung over are you?" I replied. "No, just felt like telling you how much you mean to me and how happy I am to be here with you." She smiles. "Want some breakfast before work?" (Wait, I have a job? Now I KNOW this is a dream. jokes)

I say nothing really and just snuggle her neck and sigh in relief. She ask me "Something wrong?" I replied. "Just enjoying the moment." She smiles again. "You know, this is a good look for you. Maybe you should wear this to work." She laughs. "If by work you mean "bedroom" then sure, but I just finished washing it and had to dry it out some how." I looked puzzled. "Dryer broken again?" She nods. "Alright, we'll have to get a new one then." (Apparently, my mouth is working separate of my brain I don't remember ever have a dryer period.)

Fast Forward to me pulling up to work and I walk into the a studio. Not sure what it is, but I just know it is a game studio and we are working on our new game. A game based off a book I have written. I sit at meetings, do some work at my desk, but I can't help not looking at the portrait of me and my girl. I think to myself. "Do I deserve this? Here I got everything I wanted. I know some will say I do after all the crap, but...I hope I am not causing more problem for others." This is especially true, because I know what my girl has gone through and what she had to give up for me.

My friend Xander comes by and smacks me in the back of the head NCIS style. "You still sulking?" I replied. "No." He sits on my desk and flips the portrait. "You know, you always look so unhappy or unsure about life. Now that you finally have everything, you should be happy. Believe me, if anyone deserves it it's you. You put up with so much all these years. Bout time you had a chance to be happy yeah?" I just smiled and nodded. I snap out of it and ask "By the way, how is that Gothic viking game coming along?" "Good, but still can't think of a name. You should totally work with me. Jackson and Damien is there." Instead of saying something, I roll back to a drawer and pull out a folder. "What's this?" I said "Open it"

He opens in and looks through to find a sort of data stick (Although it was kind of clear) and all these drawings. "You worked on the game?" "Well, more like added to what was already there. I made some sketches and created some characters of my own if you don't mind. I have no clue where the story is going, but I thought I give any characters you need space to put in." He replies: "These are fantastic....wait, are these us?" I smile this huge grin and nod. "Dude, sweet. Thanks a lot, bro. I got to split though, you and *name removed* up for Saturday?" "Yes, got all the arrangements done." "Nice. See you later brother. Father Odin guide you." "Indeed, brother. Father Thor be with you as well."

He leaves. I get home early and start preparing for a romantic evening. I cook some Chateaubriand (Meat soaking in wine for 24 hours) and and prepare dinner. Sadly, the night doesn't start out right. She comes home crying. I go by the door to see her on the floor, back against the door crying in her knees. "What's wrong?" "I got fired" "Oh honey..." I sit next to her and hug her. "It's okay." "I don't get it. I gave them everything and they just drop me." I am actually completely stumped on what to say except for one thing. "They let go of the best girl in the world," I hold her tight, "but we will be fine. You're the best. There is nothing you can't do." She wipes her face. "Come on, I got a surprise for you." She nods and I take her by the hands and lead her into the room. She looks in awe at the decorations around the room and the dinner placement and roses and stuff. "What's this?"

I hug her again. "This is for you. For us. For giving me the best life I could ever ask for and hoping I do the same for in return." We eat dinner and make our way to the balcony and she smiles and closes her eyes and feel the breeze with the moon shining down. "Couldn't be a more perfect night, even though the day was kind of sh*tty." We laugh a little and I pull out a box. "I am about to make it better." She looks at me puzzled. I hand her the box and say "I want these nights to last forever." Basically I proposed marriage to her and the dreams ends at that.

Probably one of the best dreams I've had in a long time. I didn't want to wake up to be honest.

At the end of the dream though I had one final thought.
"Rebecca, Steph, etc etc. (listing of names) I will always keep you in my heart and love you everyday, but it is about time I made room for some new ones."

Dreams mean so much. I find that they are the answer to the questions we have no yet asked ourselves. Love is a powerful force no matter where you find it, meaning online or in person,to me it matters not where the source comes from. I know that your dream points to something amazing, even if it happens in a different light then you indented. I remember you saying in a different post that you try to be positive but that no matter what you do you get the same results. So let me ask you this James, if you do the same things in life won't you will get the same results? Meaning that most of the time we ourselves are responsible for always finding ourselves in hard times. This was beyond true for John and I. So ask yourself James what have you been doing in your life that's same? If you want to get off the broken record of bad luck and over all crappy conditions life seems to throw at you then get off that path all together and take a new leap of faith. Live to do things different, and I'll bet you that you'll get far different and better results. Your dream gives you hope that your happy ending is far closer then you may think that is. So begin anew and wait and see how wonderful your life really can be.

[James S Cassidy]

Finding the girls that only want to be with you during the good times are best left out of your life. No man deserves someone that is only going to be with them when things are great. You want someone who is only going to love you more and more, no matter how tough things get. So be glad that the women you've been in relationships with didn't work, they weren't meant for you. No matter what life throws you will find your constant, you will find that special person that will never leave your side. It hurts me know that you feel so alone, never forget James that there are ppl who care about you.

I seems to always find them. I always get told the same story "I hate useless drama." Yet, funny enough and the most ironic, the useless drama was caused by them. Not by me. Yeah I am bi-polar and there are some things I get melodramatic about and I am slowly trying to correct this. However, you and a few others have told me the same thing...if the girl loves you enough she will go through hell to be with you. I have yet to find a girl who is like that. Even if I do, they are already taken just like all the ones I am in love with. Unlucky me. The ones I find the most attractive are the ones who get picked up the easiest.

There will always be people who love and care about me, but as sad as it is to say they can give me what I want. I know they mean well and it is not their fault, but they can't kiss me or hug me. They can't snuggle with me under blankets and watch anime. They can't make love to me or be sexual aroused by me and me to them. They can't share those intimate moments where it's you and them in the world.

Although I do have some guy friends willing to do this, but I am not gay. While I see nothing wrong with it, I am just not.

Dreams mean so much. I find that they are the answer to the questions we have no yet asked ourselves. Love is a powerful force no matter where you find it, meaning online or in person,to me it matters not where the source comes from. I know that your dream points to something amazing, even if it happens in a different light then you indented. I remember you saying in a different post that you try to be positive but that no matter what you do you get the same results. So let me ask you this James, if you do the same things in life won't you will get the same results? Meaning that most of the time we ourselves are responsible for always finding ourselves in hard times. This was beyond true for John and I. So ask yourself James what have you been doing in your life that's same? If you want to get off the broken record of bad luck and over all crappy conditions life seems to throw at you then get off that path all together and take a new leap of faith. Live to do things different, and I'll bet you that you'll get far different and better results. Your dream gives you hope that your happy ending is far closer then you may think that is. So begin anew and wait and see how wonderful your life really can be.

Not really sure what you mean by this. I understand what you mean, but as for doing the things the same way I am not sure how to answer that. We are all repetitive eventually and in fact sometimes life forces us to be. For example, I fill out job applications the same way and yet I still can't get a job. I could lie on it and put down info that is not true, but this might cause more problems than it solves.

Also, and while I know this is not your intention, you make it sound like everything is my fault to begin with. While this may true for some things it doesn't matter in everything. Especially in matters I have no control over. I can't make a girl fall in love with me or see me differently, and isn't true love accepting who we really are and not what we "should" look like? Like, if all girls like the jerkass do I have to be a jerkass too inorder to get a girl?Almost like I have to change for them, but they don't have to change at all. I have to adapt to their needs, but they don't need to adapt to mine. I should have to keep putting on a mask and a costume to impress a girl. They should accept me for who I am. Again, I am sure this is not what you mean, but you can see how people can apply it this way.

If a girl truly expects me to change that dramatically, then she doesn't love me. Ever see the movie, "Coming to America?" Eddie Murphy's character changes hid status to a goat herder because he didn't want a girl to fall in love with what he was. He wanted to fall in love with who he was. It's also very much alike the story of the princess and the toad. This ugly disgusting toad falls in love with a girl and she falls in love with him and when she accepted it, he turns into a handsome prince.

The story of beaut and the beast does this as well. He was a monster on the inside and became a monster on the outside. Showing how outward appearance may not be who we really are. Then Beauty comes along and she changes him and thus changes his entire life based on her, but she gave him a chance to change. A chance to accept that he was wrong and be better for it.

And speaking of which, maybe it is not me who needs to change, but them. Love is between two people. You ask me to look at you and your husband as an example and I ask, has your love changed for him or has it remained constant? Isn't your love a constant thing? Chances are, and I mean this with respect, you could have left him and gone with someone else. Some one who is more successful. Why didn't you? You already know the answer to this one, but my point is that you are willing to overlook the bad for the good. All the girls I have run into look more into the bad than the good. You change your life for him, but not your love for him. So not everything has or needs to change in order to find what you are looking for and sometimes...people need to accept things are bad before they can change it too good. However, how can I change what is bad when every time I try to test it out it all seems bad.

Then there is the change of menial things: Jobs, lifestyle, career. I have change my lifestyle several times already and I still get the same result. Jobs? Each time I try something new and different. Try a charm or a trick. Take advice from people....yet I still have no job. As for a career....well, I don't have one yet. I know where I want to go, but I can't get there until I start at the bottom. Maybe I want to start at the bottom, because I want to learn a few things first. Know my limitations, but I can't learn where my limitations are if no one is willing to test them out.

I have tried changing and adapting to what people need of me, but to be honest Konohakitten....everyone wants something different from me. It also seems like everyone changes their mind. I tried so hard to adapt to them for what they need, but by the time I do change that aspect they either have moved on or they want something else from me. Also, what happens if the thing they want is something I am not good at?

So how can I change or do something different?

My brother is a doctor and a physics professor. I am an artist and a painter. You how many times I was in a group and they want to hear more about my brother's line of work than mine? How easily they change subjects when they hear I am into graphic design. I once discussed this with my mother because I got upset with her one time about. My brother and mother could go on for hours about teaching kids....they can discuss everything in the books. My mother asks about me: "I painted a perfect copy of Chagall's birthday in oil." Do I go into hours of discussion with her? No, all that ends up is "Oh that's nice" and then they go back to talking about teaching again for another 2 hours.

So there are things even in my own family I feel alone in.

It's becomes contradictory sometimes when people tell me I need to be myself, but then I also need to change who I am. So which is it?

So, let me ask, what if it is not me who needs to change, but them? I can do almost anything I put my mind too within reason, but I shouldn't need to change who I am just to get a girl. If they accepted me for who I was, then I can change the bad to good or try to make the good outweigh the bad.

That's the biggest difference I see. You accepted your husband for everything that he was good or bad, then you changed to adapt.

My favorite song "She Will be loved" by Maroon 5 said it best for me

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You come anytime you want, yeah.

I know where you hide alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls


As for the whole confidence thing...well, let me put it this way. It's hard to have confidence when you get rejected from everything. All I want is an opportunity. Not a hand out, but a chance to show my stuff, but no one wants to give me that chance. Not in love, not in jobs, not in anything.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 11 April 2013 - 12:20 AM.

[MangaReader]

It's a cartoon, it's one opinion of many, but by gosh it's true. Or just a good laugh XD

[James S Cassidy]

Thanks, MangaReader.

I know Foamy quite well. lol Funny enough, I always give people the Foamy Christmas video in every holiday card I send.

[thor]

trying to make friendship.

[MangaReader]

Thanks, MangaReader.

I know Foamy quite well. lol Funny enough, I always give people the Foamy Christmas video in every holiday card I send.

No problem, kindred spirits stick together

That's actually an amazing idea XD

[James S Cassidy]

No problem, kindred spirits stick together

That's actually an amazing idea XD

hah. Now THAT is a phrase I haven't heard in a longtime. "Kindred spirits"

Well, you made me smile that's for sure.

trying to make friendship.

Okay, want to make friendship?

[MangaReader]

hah. Now THAT is a phrase I haven't heard in a longtime. "Kindred spirits"

Well, you made me smile that's for sure.

You know, I hadn't either...but I was reminded of this



Sometimes a smile is all you need to make the day worth it

[James S Cassidy]

[James S Cassidy]

[MangaReader]

What's up James...why the sad music and pic?

[James S Cassidy]

Not sad, so much as humble. The song and picture make me feel better believe or not.

The song because I feel like "Even if you are not here, I will always love you"