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[James S Cassidy]

Me being busy prevents me from feeling things I don't wish to feel at the moment.

Romantic moment #3:
When your girl is vomiting in the toilet after a night of drinking, you hold her hair back for her. After she is done and feels like crying, you tell her her hair still smells nice.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 01 February 2013 - 05:27 PM.

[MangaReader]

I know this is a few days old Scott, but I can relate for the most part.

Again, it is so easily to say it, but in practice not many can handle it. Even I got told, with everything that has happened in the past 7 years of my life, that some are surprised I haven't went insane or committed suicide by now. Some say I am strong, but I don't know. There are days I want to give in.

It's just, nothing good has happened to me in a long time. My love life sucks, I have experienced death few times, and been through things that most will never go through and I continue to go through it. I can't get a job, but some stupid person gets it instead for whatever reason. I can't get a girl, but some jerkass gets one no matter how bad he treats her. Why?

Today I fell in love with a girl, but sadly I know I can never ever have her and that knowledge puts me down. To know, no matter how much you love someone you can never have them for one reason or another.

Man, I know exactly how that feels. I haven't exactly had any success myself with pretty much everything. My childhood sucked, I got bullied nearly everyday, got beat up twice, nearly got in trouble for defending myself, had my friends leave to go other places, and had other friends betray me, one even threatening to kill me. I'm not the best studious wise, yet my family expects a lot from me, I've never been in a single relationship, and the two times I've tried to start one, both girls have never talked to me again. Sometimes it feels like death follows me, as I've lost both grandfathers before I ever got truly know them, I lost my cousin before he was even born, my friend's mom died from cancer (I send my prays to your mother), and I lost a friend to a blood clot. I haven't exactly put full effort into looking for a job, but even when I apply to places with help wanted, I still can't find work. It's unfortunate that this stuff happens and it's even worst to know the full extent how it feels.

This next part isn't meant to be a life lesson or anything, just how I get through it. The reason I continue on without hesitation is because I do it for my friends that I have had, currently have, and future ones I hope to make. I can't give up if there's still so much left that I can try to accomplish...even if I fail, I continue to pick myself up.

I don't know, maybe I just sound like some arrogant a-hole trying to make it out like bad stuff happens. I hope you don't take it that way, because all I really was really intending to do is say that I know the feeling and that we're friends, even though we sorta just began to talk to each other.

[T XD]

Me being busy prevents me from feeling things I don't wish to feel at the moment.

Romantic moment #3:
When your girl is vomiting in the toilet after a night of drinking, you hold her hair back for her. After she is done and feels like crying, you tell her her hair still smells nice.

Awww, that's sweet XD... and I feel sorry for you that you had to smell something other than the hair

[James S Cassidy]

Awww, that's sweet XD... and I feel sorry for you that you had to smell something other than the hair

Doesn't bother me. There are a lot things that are much worse to deal with.

[James S Cassidy]

Man, I know exactly how that feels. I haven't exactly had any success myself with pretty much everything. My childhood sucked, I got bullied nearly everyday, got beat up twice, nearly got in trouble for defending myself, had my friends leave to go other places, and had other friends betray me, one even threatening to kill me. I'm not the best studious wise, yet my family expects a lot from me, I've never been in a single relationship, and the two times I've tried to start one, both girls have never talked to me again. Sometimes it feels like death follows me, as I've lost both grandfathers before I ever got truly know them, I lost my cousin before he was even born, my friend's mom died from cancer (I send my prays to your mother), and I lost a friend to a blood clot. I haven't exactly put full effort into looking for a job, but even when I apply to places with help wanted, I still can't find work. It's unfortunate that this stuff happens and it's even worst to know the full extent how it feels.

It's funny how even when you try to make things better or move on from it, it just lingers. I have gotten so many people who tell me I have to stop worrying about the past and move on, yet when the past follows you everywhere you go, no matter how much you try to escape it, you start to wonder if the people who tell you to move forward ever realize that what they tell you is exactly what you have been trying to do for a while now.

But we keep going. We power through because we can take it. That is our weakness, yet our greatest strength. While there are some who go through one moment of misfortune and that isn't worth living.

This next part isn't meant to be a life lesson or anything, just how I get through it. The reason I continue on without hesitation is because I do it for my friends that I have had, currently have, and future ones I hope to make. I can't give up if there's still so much left that I can try to accomplish...even if I fail, I continue to pick myself up.

There will always be people who need you in life. Even if you don't realize it. There are some who count on you to keep going even if you have no other reasons to do so. Sometimes that's all the reasons you got.

I don't know, maybe I just sound like some arrogant a-hole trying to make it out like bad stuff happens. I hope you don't take it that way, because all I really was really intending to do is say that I know the feeling and that we're friends, even though we sorta just began to talk to each other.

No, I don't take it that way. As I said, to share our trials is to show that everyone has them.

[MangaReader]

Now to put gloominess aside (that never wants to permanently leave) ...

Agh... I can't even think of a question (maybe for light-hearted purposes) What are your thoughts on the DLC's for Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm 3? Should they introduce even more? Not single out any region with pre-order gifts? Make a whole swimsuit series XD?

Edited by MangaReader, 02 February 2013 - 07:13 PM.

[James S Cassidy]

Now to put gloominess aside (that never wants to permanently leave) ...

Agh... I can't even think of a question (maybe for light-hearted purposes) What are your thoughts on the DLC's for Naruto Ultimate Ninja Storm 3? Should they introduce even more? Not single out any region with pre-order gifts? Make a whole swimsuit series XD?

I'll answer these questions in the Podcast.

[MangaReader]

Fair enough

[James S Cassidy]

Kind of wish I had company tonight. Don't want to be alone.

[James S Cassidy]

[MangaReader]

I wish my internet wasn't out at my house (I'm supposidly getting it back today) ;P Otherwise I could infrequently keep a conversation up with you between some school work I need to complete

[Toasty Warrior]

I'm really enjoying the podcasts you're putting together James, if I used my Macbook more, I'd join in on them.

[T XD]

So, what's up ? XD

[James S Cassidy]

I'm really enjoying the podcasts you're putting together James, if I used my Macbook more, I'd join in on them.

Thank you. Keep trying to figure out ways to keep it entertaining.

So, what's up ? XD

Nothing really. Planning for the next podcast.

[James S Cassidy]

Be the guardian angel.

When someone you love is in trouble do you care what you want? You be that guardian angel to them. Some might say to be humble about yourself, but to be truthful, being that guardian angel is not about being anything at all. To you, you don't exist. It is just them. You become that warmth, that light that guides them. Nothing, but pure love. You'd sacrifice everything to see them smile. It doesn't matter what you want. No, more like you don't care what you want.

All that is on your mind is them. Their smile, their life. You give it all up in a heartbeat to see them smile one more time.

Maybe they can see it. Maybe they can't, but does it really matter that they do? Little do they know you are always there. You are always looking out for them.

[T XD]

^ I can only say that it's true, and that today, something similar happened. I couldn't take it that my friend was struggling with something in his life. I tried to make him smile as best as I can.

Edited by T XD, 06 February 2013 - 10:03 PM.

[James S Cassidy]

^ I can only say that it's true, and that today, something similar happened. I couldn't take it that my friend was struggling with something in his life. I tried to make him smile as best as I can.

I do it all the time myself. Little some know that I am actually in love with some of them. Life is always moving forward.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 06 February 2013 - 10:14 PM.

[T XD]

I do it all the time myself. Little some know that I am actually in love with some of them. Life is always moving forward.

Somehow, life makes us to try to cope with everything.


XD

Edited by T XD, 06 February 2013 - 10:32 PM.

[James S Cassidy]

Somehow, life makes us to try to cope with everything.

You know what's always funny? When people tell others they have to "move on" it's not really a choice. I know what they try to mean and I know they just want to help, but "moving on" is something that happens regardless if you want it to or not.

I find myself wondering if it would be better to say "Move up"

Edited by James S Cassidy, 06 February 2013 - 11:16 PM.

[narulsaku]

actually say move on and really move is very different. the much you ll find deeper feelings it becomes diffcult to move on!