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[Jenskott]

I think we have never talked, Shadow, but I hope all goes right in the future. And I hope that you return someday to keep talking about our Naruto's favorite couple.

 

 

 

A little, but I still feel like I lost something I can never get back.

 

I hope you feel better soon, James. think that I understand what you mean.

[Bryon_Konoha_Ninja]

A little, but I still feel like I lost something I can never get back.

I know how it feels, but I'm not letting what happened get to me because I know deep down, it's a load of crap. And besides, I got something that will make me happy that I am working on with a friend so that means I can't let myself be sad forever. I'll keep it all in my heart, same as I have done for other things. :)

[Shadow Wolf]

Hey guys! Hope you're doing well. :-)

At the moment I'm very distracted with life and other silly things. But in the process, since everyone has pretty much expressed their distaste for the Naruto ending, I want to take a bit of my time each day to post a bit of info regarding my own disagreement with this ending. Maybe this will finally set me at peace regarding this topic... I don't know. Anyway, let's see how it goes:

«The ending of the manga named Naruto by Masashi Kishimoto has been a product of a considerable long time of debating between fans of the series. Some people agree with the ending while others still question the handling of the project and the decisions taken by Kishi and by other people and teams related to Naruto, such as Studio Pierrot. As a fan of the series, I have also developed an opinion regarding the ending. However, I must admit that I like to present arguments based on evidence taken from the manga and related media. As such, without any certainty regarding the time it takes, I wish to take one topic at a time and create a series of blog posts regarding my opinion on the ending; each one of them supported with evidence taken from the manga.

As I write the following words, I want to say, beforehand, that this following LAP is not to change Naruto's ending, but rather to express with evidence why this ending is so out of place, it makes me wonder if the intended ending is almost the opposite of what happened. Many factors place Naruto's ending as one of the most controversial endings in the manga universe. So much that it is still touched up to this day. But let's cut straight to the chase: why the ending of Naruto feels so... empty?»

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 17 February 2015 - 09:03 PM.

[Shadow Wolf]

First point of discussion: Naruto (character)

Naruto is, as the name of the manga implies, the main character in the manga. With a tragic past that left him as an orphan with a Nine Tailed-Fox inside him, he was branded a monster and faced loneliness until a short time before his graduation exam to become a genin (D-ranked ninja, which is the first rank you get when you become a ninja). He had made some connections with people like Sasuke (Naruto's rival and a character we will talk about some other time), Iruka (his academy teacher) and the Third Hokage, who is one of the characters who actually knows more about Naruto's past.

Thanks to this difficult childhood, Naruto focuses his attention on two things: pranks and becoming Hokage. The former makes people actually notice him, thus he «feels» less lonely; while the latter has a more serious goal: acceptance, acknowledgement and respect. Seeing how a Hokage represents all of these symbols, Naruto's dream is to become Hokage.

As we begin to follow Naruto's journey, we begin to symphatize with him and to get to know his past, his present and his future. We get to see that he has a crush on his classmate, Sakura Haruno and that, be it faith or a balance in team composition, he ends up in the same team as her, but with rival Sasuke Uchiha. We also find out that he loves Ramen and that he is really bad at making clones of himself. Despite that he can train really hard to master a skill when he puts his mind and body to it. And after he becomes part of a team, he beguns to show considerable skills and potential -both individually and as a team- which actually surprise many people around him. In his team, with Kakashi Hatake as their instructor (another interesting character which we will talk about later), as part of this team called Team 7, Naruto embarks on a series of missions and tasks which will make him grow and develop bonds and influence different people.

Now, with a little less formality, let's talk about some of Naruto's traits (apart from the ones already mentioned):

-His motto is: "I never give up/I never go back on my word. That's my ninja way."
-Has a slang ("ttebayo") which he uses quite often when he talks.
-Likes to keep his promises.
-Can be quite unpredictable at times
-Has a special influence on people and tends to actually change them through words (known by the fans as the "Talk no Jutsu")
-Invented a jutsu called the "Sexy no Jutsu" in which he transfrms into a woman with little or no clothes, thus showing that he is a pervert at times
-Can be clueless about girl's feelings.
-Has around 12 years when his life as a ninja begins.

Now then, with all of these details, we have a basic visualization of Naruto's character: A hyperactive guy (now a ninja) who wants to prove himself to the world and wants to achieve his goals as he aspires to be Hokage.

Now, with all of these traits in mind, its kinda hard to imagine him in an entirely different light: in a light which shows this, apart from becoming Hokage, all of his other goals were left behind, correct? Well, the ending seems to have done just that. How? We'll talk about it in the next section.

(PS: as you can see guys, I want to work on a very broad article about Naruto. With this in mind, I know there will be a lot of details that I will skip or forget. If that happens I would appreciate if you guys help me with additional details and important facts about the topic at hand. Apart from that, I hope you enjot the read and I apologize if there's any grammar mistake. After all, is not easy to write so much with a smartphone, hehehe)

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 25 February 2015 - 12:22 AM.

[MangaReader]

If Naruto were real... psychologist would have a field day. I already know experts of literature probably already have one, if not they will in the future most likely 

Edited by MangaReader, 26 February 2015 - 06:48 PM.

[soshi]

Well I can agree with that after all the end of the manga goes against everything that naruto believed in

[Shadow Wolf]

Mangareader: Hah, you speak true my friend.

 

soshi: Exactly. And that's not even counting the latest works.

 

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Its amazing to see how everything can change in so little time. New life, new people... sometimes we do remember the past for experiences we would like to have and experiences we would not like to have, but for whichever, we may forget that the present has a lot to think about. Last time I vistited the forum I was in a relationship... now I'm married. It's a whole new chapter, but it is a happy story my wife and I are creating. So when I look back for a moment, I must admit that my life has changed.

 

Even though this is a new chapter, I still hope to always be myself. And in a way, I must thank Naruto for that. In the pain arc he promised not to change, but well... the ending says otherwise. Can't really blame the characters when the author is the one at fault, but that's the thing with us fans: we give life to the characters we read about, hehehehe.

 

But anyway, I rambled for long. I hope everyone is doing well. How is life treating you? And of course, what goals, hopes and dreams do you have at the moment?

[narusaku256]

CONGRATUULLLAAATIIOOONNNSSS Shadow :DDDDD

[Shadow Wolf]

Thank you very much narusaku256. It's been way to long but I am very grateful for the congratulations. :)

 

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It is 5 am in the morning where I am at the moment. However, I don't think I will rest until I put this letter I wrote somewhere. I decided to put it here, for it is here where I have my blog, and although I don't know what will happen to it, I do not want this to disappear. As such, here goes an unusual and yet a letter my heart desired to write:

 

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A letter to TSM:

 

If at this very moment I was a member of TSM, I would probably feel absolutely devastated. Putting so much time and effort into a lot of training, sacrificing a lot of things about life just to put the extra work into becoming the best team of League of Legends in the region of North America, and having one of the greatest support staff to help me make sure that I stay focused on the goals. And yet, in the end, everything was cut short in one single night.

 

And yet I can't really know how they truly feel, for I am just a fan watching from the sidelines. Even if I have a tight knot around my throat, I cannot truly understand just how crushing this moment is for each and every member of League of Legends North American team, TSM. Why I cannot ever understand? Because I have never felt the amount of pressure that they are feeling on a day to day basis, simply because of what "TSM" represents:

-"The Number 1 team"
-"The best line-up in the history of TSM"
-"The team with the best regular season"
-"A team made of superstars"

...and so on. To the North American League of Legends fans, TSM is a symbol of hope, enthusiasm and passion when it comes to League of Legends. For me, it is not exception. Ever since season 2, watching this team represent North America time and time again at the League of Legends World Championship fills me with joy and hope. Watching them proudly represent us on the Summoner's Rift and pushing their champion's skills to the limit against the best teams in the world is a symbol of inspiration which I can't really put into words. To the casual fans and to the passionate fans, this means that, for one or for a few weekends, League of Legends becomes the number 1 program to see during their following weekends. To others, it means gathering in a common place to watch the team from a big TV screen unleashing their skills and abilities to reach the coveted League of Legends World Championship Summoner's Cup. To the ones who can afford it, it means booking tickets to the Arena where the games will be held, just to cheer for them and to watch them personally as they battle their way through some grueling matches against very tough opponents. To me, it is being at the front of my laptop with my headphones on listening to the full streaming experience as my neighbors probably wonder why am I screaming so much. To each of the fans, we want TSM to win.

 

In this year, the organization did the best they could to prepare a North American dream team in TSM. They al know it: "Hauntzer","Svenskeren", "Bjergsen", "Doublelift", "Biofrost", "Reginald", "Weldon" and "Parth", each and everyone of them did their part to put the greatest of efforts into this year. They took the North American League Championship 2016 series by storm and punched their tickets to the World Championship as the number 1 seed. They "boot camped" in Korea several times in hopes to keep up with the meta game and have an edge versus the best teams in the World. However, no matter how much preparation, in the end a few plays inside the Summoner's Rift can turn the greatest hope into an crushing defeat.

 

To top it off, the League of Legends fans are so passionate, that whenever a team like TSM loses, they can be very demanding and can unleash a myriad of negative comments towards them. Words like "choke", "retire", "bench", "trash", "replace" fill up the comments section of the TSM squad whenever they express their sadness and disappointment through the social media. Do they feel the right to unleash at them? Maybe. But many other fans also provide support to their favorite team during these tough times. This is why I find myself awake after a 4-hour sleep, for even if this letter is never read by the members of TSM, I want to make sure that this letter is out there, showing them that fans are very supportive of them and that, even when the comments of "X region is better than NA" will circulate for a while, some of us will do what we believe is right: do what we would like to be done to us in these tough times:

 

'Dear TSM:

 

Although I do not know if this letter will ever reach you, I want to express and pour all my emotions and thoughts into trying my best to give you guys support and cheer during these times. Each and every one of you gave your 110% in these last months and you placed your reputation on the line as the greatest team in North America. However, the results have not been the ideal, for you guys have been defeated in some very tight matches. I could go on trying to figure out what went wrong, but I am no expert in League of Legends, for I cannot handle the stress of the PvP environment, and I know that the analyst staff will figure out the source of these losses. However, there is on thing I can do: do my best to provide support to you guys.

At this moment, I can't say for sure if you guys are even sleeping well, or even sleeping. The thoughts of last night's defeats are probably haunting your mind. That along with the hurtful comments of many fans will have you wondering if all your efforts were worth the time. Some of you may have some "alternatives" to take if you do not wish to hold this pressure anymore. However, I believe that each and everyone of you have what it takes to try again for the World Summoner's cup.

 

Yes, I know that this means another year of grueling work, sacrifices, time invested into the game and probably a lot of criticism from may fans. Honestly, I do not know the feeling. However, I do know that your guys worked extra hard to go this far. Was it worth it? To me, yes. Of course, this time you were knocked out of the group stage and there is bound to be disappointment, for the expectation were to be one of the top 4 teams in the world. However, the Rift can be cruel and these results can happen, whether we want them or not. However, this does not mean that TSM is a bad team. It only means that there is room for improvement in order to reach that goal. But no matter what, I want you guys to know that many of us fans will be here supporting you, wishing you the best and begging from wherever we are that this TSM squad would try once more to reach the World Championship. This line-up was not only built to be the strongest team, but also to be the one to endure the most criticism out of any other team. And with this I believe that you guys can stand up and take the Rift once more. Yes, it is disappointing to be on this position at this very moment; however this does not mean that "everything" is over. The game will continue to exist and so is TSM, and as long as this happens, you guys will still have fans who will be there supporting you and waiting for every update from the TSM squad. Why? Because we care! Because we love TSM! Because we still believe in you guys!

 

To Hauntzer, to Svenskeren, to Bjergsen, to Doublelift, to Biofrost, to Reginald, to Parthm and to Weldon, I bow my head to you guys in respect and in honor, knowing that you poured your hearts out into giving it all for you and for us. I want to see you guys grow in unison as a team and prove that TSM will always give their best, no matter the results, and try their hardest to make the fans proud. And even though this year the results will not be on paper, I know that this is just a small step in the pursuit of the dream that everyone in League of Legends aspire for: winning the World Championship.

 

For now, it will be a time to endure, to rest, and maybe even to visit those closest to you. After that, we do not know what will come next. But do know that we want the best for you and we will stand by you, cheering you on your matches, celebrating your wins and trying our best to cheer you up during your losses. We are the TSM fans and we will try our hardest to stand by our team, just like they try their hardest to represent us and make us proud. And you know what? You do make us proud TSM, you really do!'

[Shadow Wolf]

It's been a while since I last wrote here. Last time my post was kinda silly. This time, not so much. I just want to write for a while so I'm grateful for you guys bearing with me.

People who know me here know that I am from Puerto Rico. However, I've been living for a while in Pennsylvania with my wife, for we came here seeking a future for us. As such, we left most of our families in Puerto Rico. And of course, we do miss our families. So you can imagine now where I'm heading with this post.

Recently, a hurricane barreled through Puerto Rico. It was a very powerful hurricane, with winds of over 150 miles per hour. Last time my island got hit so hard was way back in the 1960's. And although in 1998 a hurricane left the island affected (hurricane Georges), it sustained winds of about 125 miles per hour. So this hurricane Maria was way more powerful than Georges.

The effects of the hurricane can be seen in pictures and videos around the web. All the island is without electricity and there are few ways to communicate at the moment. This means that neither my wife nor I have heard anything from our families ever since the event.

This has been very difficult for us, and especially for her because she was closer to her family than I was to mine. Not saying that I don't live my family, for even with our weird relationship, I do love and cherish my family. However, my wife's bond with her family is stronger, if I can put it like that.

It is very difficult so see her crying each day, looking at her cellphone and just waiting for that one call from anyone to let them know that they are OK. It is the same tribulation for me, but in my case, I have decided to stay strong for her and be the source of hope until she hears from them.

But of course, this is a difficult time for both of us, so at the moment, I felt the need to just do something to get part of the stress out of my head. Hence these words that I'm writing at the moment.

So for all of you guys and gals in the forums, take a moment to communicate with your family and talk with them. Sure, you may bump heads every now and then, but cherish the fact that they are OK. For it is usually not until the bad times that we realize just how much we love them and miss them. Keep debating about Naruto and the likes, but do me that favor even if it's just once today. :)

[Shadow Wolf]

The Road to Success

Day 1: Change

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step." (Martin Luther King Jr.)


The series of posts that I am about to begin writing from now on will be a bit more frequent, since it will mark the beginning of what I expect to be a big change in my life. At first, I was planning to write a diary regarding the events that I am about to write. However, Because I am also hoping that, as my story begins to unfold, I can somehow help others develop their story too, and also because I want to have a place to go back to and review my progress, I decided to write about it in this blog. It will be odd considering that, although this is an NS forum I will probably not talk much about NS, but I want this place to be the start of my journey because this place brought many changes in my life. I met friends, I consider some of them family, and I have met others who have left their mark in my life. As such, I owe to all of them and to myself this change. Hence why this will be the place for this next chapter in my life.

During the past few years I have tried to make this change, but because of lack of confidence and organization, I have not prevailed. However, I have not given up on it and I know that I will achieve this change. Which type of change will be? Not even I know exactly what type it will be, but it will definitely be a change for success.

Starting tomorrow I will begin sharing my thoughts and updates regarding a series of books I will be reading and reflecting on what changes will be taking effect on my life. It may take more than a year, so my activity may increase a lot, but if the mods are alright with me posting multiple times in my blog, then I will continue to write.

Whatever happens, may this post begin a change which will mold me into a better person.

First book: Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill

Tomorrow I will begin writing about it as I bought it today and I must get ready for work.

Its time to make a change (Dream Theater - Prophets of War)

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 22 July 2018 - 03:37 AM.

[Shadow Wolf]

The Road to Success

Day 3: The Starting Line

As I lay down in bed and write these words, a sense of determination has already began to place itself into my mind. Of course, I am also aware that many times, the first few days of a newly started project are always like these. It is up to me now to begin transforming this project into a definite goal in which I can only go forward. To do this, I have already several books and tools at my disposal. I know I can make good use of them, but I must also remember that I need to put in time and effort in order to create new habits.

Despite all of this, I can already see results in just a few days. My communication with my wife is improving immensely and my days are beginning to look brighter and better.

"Every day, in Every way, I'm getting better and Better (Émile Coué)

There will be a lot of things to improve, but all of them can be improved with determination. And if I can produce changes in a day, I can also do it in the next day too.

A few audios on YouTube on self-improvement are setting the foundation for this project, but also a few changes in my daily activities are also playing a good part on it too.

But this is just the beginning, the true results will be clearer and clearer as the changes will become prevalent and efficient. But for now, may this be a reminder that I am already on the path to success.

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Think and Grow Rich is a book written on the late 30's by Napoleon Hill. Hoping that the book would inspire people to become successful after "The Great Depression" of those years, the book took off and became a "Best-Seller".

After listening to the audio version twice already, I can see that many of the principles in his book are definitely designed for success. However, to truly draw the results of it, it is paramounnt to apply in written form the pieces of advice suggested. Time to go to work.

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 02 August 2018 - 12:34 AM.

[ree]

Es muy bueno que hallan mas hispano parlantes, en el foro, a decir verdad me sentia un poco solo jajajaja... saludos shadow wolf

[Shadow Wolf]

Es muy bueno que hallan mas hispano parlantes, en el foro, a decir verdad me sentia un poco solo jajajaja... saludos shadow wolf

Saludos! Me alegra saber que te sientas así. En realidad se que hay más personas que saben español en el foro, pero usualmente escribimos en inglés para que todos puedan participar y no se sientan como extraños. Aun así, puedes sentirte en confianza en mi "blog" y conversar en español.

Translation for other readers: Greetings! I'm glad to know you feel like this. In reality, I know there are other members who also speak Spanish in the forums, but we usually write in English so that everyone can participate without feeling like strangers. Even so, feel free and be at ease to speak in Spanish in my blog.

Haven't updated on The Road to Success yet since I have an important event coming up, but I will say that things are improving very nicely. Take care people.

[Shadow Wolf]

The Road to Success

Day 20: The seeds of today will become the fruits of tomorrow.

"I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul." (William Ernest Henley)


Although the success of the changes in my life are not dramatic, the results are already taking place in my life. Yesterday I had my mid-year pseudo-review of my job performance. I call it like that because the official review is every year. This pseudo-review is kinda like a hypothetical review of the results a person will have in a year if they continue to work and improve. But anyway, back to the topic... I am very pleased to say that my results are trending for a "greater than expected" and for "excellent" results. Not only have I become a Senior Operator in such a short time (normally, a part from the teaching courses, it takes 18 months to apply for a new job, but because of the need for Sr. Operators has Increased in my company, in less than a year I am already a Sr. Operator), but my bosses and my some of my coworkers are encouraging me to work towards new opportunities within the company. I am very happy to know that they believe in me and I hope to keep pushing up. Now, these results are not for bragging rights, but I would like them more to be seen as a chart of my progress so that the results can prove if the changes in my life are working or not. For the results per se I can only give the credit to my wife for supporting me and for pushing me forward, even though I am aware that I can also thank my own effort. But effort alone is not enough. You need people beside you encouraging you and believe in you, and my wife has always done that.

Speaking of which, our relationship is also improving. I can feel the Increase in communication and even though we may still have an argument every now and then, that are rarely heated and even if they are, we manage to talk it out and settle it down later in the day. She is looking forward to next month, for her sister is coming to visit and she has many plans ahead. :)

Finally, there is one thing I need to solve. It is a gift a friend gave me and which I plan to return soon. I call it a gift because this gift planted the seeds of the success I have today. However, this gift I only borrowed from him, which is why I will return it to him now. I am very grateful for what he did for me and even though we have not communicated as often, I am sure that he will be pleased when everything falls back into place.

Well, time to sleep once more. Keep striving for improvement guys. I believe you all can achieve whatever you dream as long as you develop a burning desire to get it. :)

[Shadow Wolf]

It's been so long since I wrote anything here. I hope everyone is doing well. I know this day is special for many of you, so I hope you enjoy this and every other day.

 

There are far too many things that have happened during the course of these years, so I'll try to be brief:

 

1-Got a new job  after 5 years in my previous job and it seems that a bright future is ahead. Not even 4 months into the job and a "Strong" Year end review along with a good word from my coworkers points to them being great at teaching me the basics of my new job.

 

2-I'm a father of a now 16-month-old princess. She is practically a mirror version of me as a girl, but I know she will be a better version of me.

 

3-Remember that gift I mentioned in my previous post? Yup, managed to return it and I'm very glad that he was very happy to have received it.

 

4-COVID wasn't easy, but we were able to pull through. I think the hardest part of COVID for me was being forbidden from going to the Gynecologist with my wife at the time she was pregnant. Keep taking care of yourselves no matter your opinion on the vaccine. My wife's twin sister lost her Mother-In-Law to COVID, so for that reason we took the vaccine. However, it is OK if you want or don't want to take it as long as you keep taking care of yourself.

 

5-Finally, I still do not follow Naruto or Boruto much nowadays. I prefer NaruSaku fanfics these days, hehehehe

 

Overall, my life has become better than before. People like James S Cassidy, Konohakitten, and many others here helped me during some of my hard times, so thank you all for that. I may not talk much these days, but I will never forget you guys.

 

I'll still lurk around, so if you have any questions, feel free to ask. 

 

Best wishes

 

Lou

[Shadow Wolf]

Hi everyone! Hope you are all doing well. Hopefully Boruto hasn't brought much disappointment and that your love for NS is as strong as ever.

 

I've been pondering about whether I should write the topic I'm going to cover in this post. It should be a topic that does not matter to me anymore, but maybe the reason as to why I haven't completely let it go may be due to selfishness or something similar. As such, I hope to shed some light on my own behavior as I write this. During my time in this forum, I got to know a certain person and grow closer to her. The details of the events are vague due to the years passed, but I'll try my best to remember. 

 

If memory serves, everything began in February 2012, back to when I was fairly new to the forum. Knowing Spanish and English caught the attention of some people I befriended, including this person. As such, I began talking with each of them. I became friends with some and they are still my friends to this day. The person I'm talking about though, she became special. 

 

We started having a lot of conversations and began to develop an online relationship which grew by the day. By the time April and May came around, we were sharing with each other a lot of personal information and intimate topics.

 

However, sometime between June and July of the same year, something began to change. Whatever circumstances were surrounding her began to affect her a lot and a void began to form around our friendship. Eventually, she wanted me to move forward and not think about a relationship with her. When I asked why, she said that it was something that she could not share with me.

 

Feeling powerless due to not being able to help, I did the one thing she asked me not to do: write a post revealing that we have been secretly in a relationship in order to ask her friends to help her. 

 

My intentions were simply to ask people around the forum to support her with whatever was worrying her. However, in the process, it seems that I only made matters worse. This was proven due to her writing me a massage that my post was simply an act of revenge against her. It was so bad that she said it was the worst thing anyone has done to her in her life. My post was actually taken down, and even though I asked around as to why, no one had any idea as to how it disappeared and why.

 

After a while, I tried to apologize for the consequences of my actions, but I was not forgiven. After contemplating the worst for a while, someone else in the forums helped me to move forward.

 

Eventually, the person in question disappeared and I never heard from her again. 

 

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Up to this day, I still have many questions left unsolved.

 

1-What was happening that eventually led her to let go of our friendship/relationship?

 

2-Why was so important that I kept all of this a secret?

 

3-Why was my post an act of revenge even though my intent was the complete opposite?

 

4-Why did she eventually disappear?

 

and finally...

 

5-I was left only with one cryptic message when she disappeared:

 

"Tell him that is not his fault".

 

Why these last words?

 

 

10 years have passed and up to this day, I was never able to know the truth behind all of this. I did hear rumors of "harassment, stalking and fear/danger of life", but nothing was specific enough to answer any of these questions. Not knowing of her fate made me wonder if she was even alive and as the years went by, the "loss" affected me to the point where I even wonder if the person was real in the first place...

 

This has been a weight that I've been carrying for a long time and, although I have shared this with some people (Thanks James S. Cassidy for saving my life back then and sorry that you have had to deal with my stubbornness), and I tried at one point to find answers without success, there was always this void that I was never able to fill. Maybe this is a feeling similar to when someone close to you dies and it is some sort of grief, or maybe it is my curiosity to know the truth behind everything that makes me not want to forget this for so long, but whatever it is, it still haunts me to this day.

 

I'm sorry if I bring any bad memories to anyone around the forum. Those who were around at that time may probably figure out who the person is, but for the sake of confidentiality, I do not want to say their name.  I feel like I did enough damage back then even though that was not my intention, so I do not want anything negative out of this. I'm simply writing to figure out how I can let all of this go.

 

 

Do I want answers? Yes and No. Although I still search for answers, I do not have anyone who could give me answers. Heck, I wouldn't even know who to ask about this anyway. And yet, there is still this desire for me to move on that I can't complete yet. Is it because I still want to save something or someone, or is it simply because I want answers? I don't really know. So maybe writing this down and reading it again my help me figure things out myself and in the process, answer my own questions. Who knows. maybe after this I can finally let all of this go and accept that, even though I may have hurt someone, I can still learn and grow. and maybe, just maybe, sometime in the future I can prove that I really wished and still wish for her to be happy. The romantic feelings may be gone, but the fact that I want those who made an impact on me to be happy remains. So, wherever you are, I will keep believing in you no matter what, just like I always believe in NaruSaku. 

 

 

If I have one question for anyone who reads this, is the following: Have you had any stories in where you have had to deal with loss? How did you move forward?

 

Use this topic as a sort of group therapy of sorts if you feel like it. Maybe that way we can help each other heal.

 

Take care guys and thank you for enduring my rants, hahahahahaha

 

Louis (Shadow Wolf) 

[James S Cassidy]

"Tell him that is not his fault".

 

Why these last words?

You wanted her to be your love, but she never wanted to be yours.

There was always someone else.

[Shadow Wolf]

You wanted her to be your love, but she never wanted to be yours.

There was always someone else.

 

This truth would have been way better than all the mess that happened back then. I believe i would have saved way more hardship and suffering than the veil of secrets that was placed during that time. But, now a lot of things make sense now, so thank you.

 

OK, like I mentioned. Feel free to share your experiences my fellow NS family. Always ready to lend an ear (or an eye to read in this case, hehehe)