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[Sakura Blossoms]

Wow, that is hauntingly beautiful. Thanks for the vid link

[James S Cassidy]

Wow, that is hauntingly beautiful. Thanks for the vid link

No problem. I am eager for this movie, BTW. The music is perfect.

That's where you'll see if you're a person who can still stand up despite many things bringing him/her down , in other words, you can handle the hardness of life.
You got to do the right thing for yourself and for the others.

The world we live in, sadly, isn't balanced well... so far. So, this is why you have to keep fighting against faults, like this one, throughout life.

Again, it is so easily to say it, but in practice not many can handle it. Even I got told, with everything that has happened in the past 7 years of my life, that some are surprised I haven't went insane or committed suicide by now. Some say I am strong, but I don't know. There are days I want to give in.

It's just, nothing good has happened to me in a long time. My love life sucks, I have experienced death few times, and been through things that most will never go through and I continue to go through it. I can't get a job, but some stupid person gets it instead for whatever reason. I can't get a girl, but some jerkass gets one no matter how bad he treats her. Why?

Today I fell in love with a girl, but sadly I know I can never ever have her and that knowledge puts me down. To know, no matter how much you love someone you can never have them for one reason or another.

[T XD]

Again, it is so easily to say it, but in practice not many can handle it. Even I got told, with everything that has happened in the past 7 years of my life, that some are surprised I haven't went insane or committed suicide by now. Some say I am strong, but I don't know. There are days I want to give in.

It's just, nothing good has happened to me in a long time. My love life sucks, I have experienced death few times, and been through things that most will never go through and I continue to go through it. I can't get a job, but some stupid person gets it instead for whatever reason. I can't get a girl, but some jerkass gets one no matter how bad he treats her. Why?

Today I fell in love with a girl, but sadly I know I can never ever have her and that knowledge puts me down. To know, no matter how much you love someone you can never have them for one reason or another.

Scott, I want to give you an advice. I know that maybe you won't accept it for the hard, furious, illogical things that happens in life, and that maybe that advice you'll read, you'll see it useless for what stupid things that happens everyday that you'll reject it but, though, I want to say it: Try to take everything in a positive way, as best as you can. Search the good from it, no matter how painful it is. What happens in the past, whether it's painful or not, remember it but move on along with it.

There's always loss but that doesn't mean you won't get another someone who you love.

Hope you get what I mean XD

Edited by T XD, 21 January 2013 - 11:01 PM.

[James S Cassidy]

Scott, I want to give you an advice. I know that maybe you won't accept it for the hard, furious, illogical things that happens in life, and that maybe that advice you'll read, you'll see it useless for what stupid things that happens everyday that you'll reject it but, though, I want to say it: Try to take everything in a positive way, as best as you can. Search the good from it, no matter how painful it is. What happens in the past, whether it's painful or not, remember it but move on along with it.

There's always loss but that doesn't mean you won't get another someone who you love.

Hope you get what I mean XD

heh. You know how many times I have been told this? How many times I got told to "move on" "Find someone else?" At least 8 times.

It's getting harder to keep going and keep finding reasons. I don't have the reasons to commit suicide, but I don't have the reasons to live either. Being bi-polar doesn't help either where anything could set you off.

I have small pleasures in life, but beyond that I don't have much. I can't get a job, I can't get a career. I am stuck at home taking care of a grandmother who has no clue where or when she is. I can't get any help for her because I don't have the money to do so and the government rather just let her die. People think Obama is going to solve all their problems, but he can't even get help for my own grandmother cause apparently my mother makes too much money. ($55,000 year.) How crazy is that?

My mom suffers from chemo and I have to tend to that and I have no friends left near me to spend time away. My uncle dies and leaves $60,000 in bills and every day is a struggle for money.

I pray for a way out. I pray for anything good to happen and it doesn't. Nothing works and I realize I have no social life at all. I can't even get a job now cause we can't leave my grandmother alone least she burns the house down.

And it's like all anyone cares about today is money. The government wants money, the president spends money, and people who make millions have no idea how hard it is to struggle.

Yet all that I can handle, but I am going nuts from pure stress. I just want a way out. I want something good to happen so something heavy can be lifted from my family.

My mom especially is losing faith....at a time when she needs faith more than ever.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 22 January 2013 - 12:08 AM.

[Shadow Wolf]

You know? You always end up worrying me when you write things like this. I'm sure you've heard this from me before, but I have always admired the fact that you have been able to endure this much and still have the strength not only to keep up the good spirits, but to share that spirit with others.

But you know? There s always a moment in where the strength of the world puts a strain on us. That, my friend, is when you have no other choice than to share you troubles. Yeah, I know nothing will change just like that, but keeping it to yourself until it comes to a boiling point can also be very stressing. (Sorry if it sound like I'm scolding you or anything)

What I wish to say is that, even though I can't do something to change your situation (and believe me, if there was anything, you could be sure that I would go ahead and do it), I wish to make you become more... "shareful" (I just made up that word) about your troubles. Yeah, we have talked about these a few times, but share them anytime you feel like this. If I can't carry that weight, then at least I can give you water while you carry it, right? (in a metaphorical way I mean). And I say this because this is what you also told me: that every time I felt troubled by something, I should share it with you, even if it was the same topic over and over again.

Heh... there's this phrase which says :better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all". Kinda funny since you have experienced love and all that. Considering I've never had a girlfriend (in fact, I've never been kissed to be honest XD), I kinda envy my friends on that (yeah, that includes you as well).

Hahah... I wish I could make money disappear to be honest. That's why I'm stuck with a job that has the only shift that I dislike (2nd shift) and a boss that finds the smallest reason to criticize your work.

We all have our different battles, and we can't compare one to another (Maybe I'm contradicting myself when I look at what I have written just above these words, but that was for trying to make you at least chuckle). But sometimes, all we need is someone to lend an ear and listen to us. To feel that someone actually cares for us and is ready to give of his/her time to listen to us. That my friend, is enough to put a smile on my face.

Money doesn't buy happiness (that's why people crave for more money and become even more unhappy). To enjoy the little things in life (even if we can only enjoy them one or two times in a week)... that's what I wish to do and that's what I want to help my friends to do.

Anyway, I think I'll shut my mouth for now. I fear that this suddenly ends up with me speaking nonsense. Feel free to debate any of my points here. If that is enough to help you blow off some of the stress, then feel free to speak your mind. That's what I wish to do: to help my friends one way of another.

[James S Cassidy]

Thanks you guys. I had a bi-polar attack yesterday and I felt like utter crap. Considering the stuff that has been happening lately, I am surprise this didn't happen sooner.

You know? You always end up worrying me when you write things like this. I'm sure you've heard this from me before, but I have always admired the fact that you have been able to endure this much and still have the strength not only to keep up the good spirits, but to share that spirit with others.

But you know? There s always a moment in where the strength of the world puts a strain on us. That, my friend, is when you have no other choice than to share you troubles. Yeah, I know nothing will change just like that, but keeping it to yourself until it comes to a boiling point can also be very stressing. (Sorry if it sound like I'm scolding you or anything)

What I wish to say is that, even though I can't do something to change your situation (and believe me, if there was anything, you could be sure that I would go ahead and do it), I wish to make you become more... "shareful" (I just made up that word) about your troubles. Yeah, we have talked about these a few times, but share them anytime you feel like this. If I can't carry that weight, then at least I can give you water while you carry it, right? (in a metaphorical way I mean). And I say this because this is what you also told me: that every time I felt troubled by something, I should share it with you, even if it was the same topic over and over again.

Heh... there's this phrase which says :better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all". Kinda funny since you have experienced love and all that. Considering I've never had a girlfriend (in fact, I've never been kissed to be honest XD), I kinda envy my friends on that (yeah, that includes you as well).

The biggest problem with advice is to understand what the other person is going through. It's good gesture to give advice, but it's hard for the other person to take the advice when they're at a moment of weakness. It's easy for anyone to tell them to keep going. What isn't easy is to understand what they are going through and why they feel life is just too hard.

This is why when I give advice, I always try to show them how much I understand their pain. How I understand what they feel and how I know what it feels like to be put at that moment where you just want to give in. Sometimes all it takes is for someone to say "I've been there, I know what it is like to want to give up and feel too weak. If I can find the strength to keep going, so can you."

You have to show them that it can be done. That they can find the strength to keep going. Which is why we look to heroes for guidance and inspiration. I know more than most how hard it can be.

My mom was utter depressed yesterday and it made me depressed.

Money doesn't buy happiness (that's why people crave for more money and become even more unhappy). To enjoy the little things in life (even if we can only enjoy them one or two times in a week)... that's what I wish to do and that's what I want to help my friends to do.

Money is something you can't live with it and you can't live without it.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 22 January 2013 - 09:50 AM.

[Chucky-kun]

Falling in love is hard, eh.

[James S Cassidy]

Falling in love is hard, eh.

Hurts every time.

I am still bruised from my last relationship.

[Chucky-kun]

Hurts every time.

I am still bruised from my last relationship.

To quote you from earlier on in this blog,
"It is better to have tried and failed, than not tried at all."

[James S Cassidy]

To quote you from earlier on in this blog,
"It is better to have tried and failed, than not tried at all."

Yeah. I guess I can confidently say that it wasn't my fault why it failed...again.

[Chucky-kun]

Yeah. I guess I can confidently say that it wasn't my fault why it failed...again.

Then the problem was not you, which is definitely good.

[James S Cassidy]

Very excited for the podcast coming up.

[James S Cassidy]

Sometimes there are some moments where you find yourself asking "Why bother?"

Edited by James S Cassidy, 28 January 2013 - 04:28 PM.

[T XD]

I'm sure if you give a chance, maybe things will be good

Edited by T XD, 28 January 2013 - 04:24 PM.

[narulsaku]

now what happened scott. why are you that much sad. last time i came here you were sad too. why you live like this. enjoy the life man. god helps but first take tests. you have just to wait.

[James S Cassidy]

now what happened scott. why are you that much sad. last time i came here you were sad too. why you live like this. enjoy the life man. god helps but first take tests. you have just to wait.

You know I ask myself that a lot. Bad things keep happening to me even when I try to ignore them. It's hard to enjoy life when at times you cant catch a break and bad things keep happening.

The weird part is, I keep surviving. No matter how bad it is.

But don't we also tell ourselves after asking that to bother and see where it takes us? You never know how one action could change everything.

That's why I keep pressing forward. At least the hope to find something different. One more new project.

Edited by James S Cassidy, 30 January 2013 - 03:34 AM.

[narulsaku]

i see. but hey dont worry dont talk like children. you have to keep going you are not alone just remember that. and share every sorrows man it ll help you alot. you know me and my family kind of going through a bad condition too.

[James S Cassidy]

i see. but hey dont worry dont talk like children. you have to keep going you are not alone just remember that. and share every sorrows man it ll help you alot. you know me and my family kind of going through a bad condition too.

Im sorry. Seems to be a bad time for a lot of people I know

[narulsaku]

Im sorry. Seems to be a bad time for a lot of people I know

well yes .you know i never have mentioned my worries or problems. though 1 or 2 people know here.

[Toasty Warrior]

Thought I'd just stick my head in here real quick and say hey James. It sounds like you've been quite busy, but I hope everything is going well.