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[Shadow Wolf]

Hey shadow wolf just to stop by and tell you how pairing wars really are terrible as for the whole digimon season 1 and 2 pairing war i thought both sides would move on, but no it still goes on till this day.

 

when i ran into the tumblr tag name taiora (thats the name of the ship i support)

 

I saw a several post going aganist that pairing and a heated debating i even saw a really big wall of text from the opposite ship. Next thing you know i just walked out that tag. Funny thing is i remember going to that tag few years back then i left for some reason now i know the reason why i left.

 

If people wants to debate at least make a different tag so people can argue all day there. It just makes me feel uncomfortable that some people have to bash and make others feel bad for shipping a ship that never happened in a tag thats labeled taiora. I feel sorry for the people who have to defend that ship like 24/7 in that tag.

 

For now i just look at people who support taiora in there personal tumblr blog.

 

Naruto pairings might end up the same accept much worse.

 

To summarize it pairing wars will never end.

 

If your planing to watch the first two seasons of digimon just don't get into pairings its a headache. 

 

Huh? wow... that bad huh?

 

Well, I'm technically already in one of those (NS, hahahaha), but I'm not the type to retaliate, so I don't think you'll need to worry. Thanks for sharing this with me, though. :)

 

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Is it true that there are some things that we cannot change no matter how hard we try? Maybe so... some are good and some are bad. Yet in spite of that, we keep fighting and we keep trying to change them.

 

My previous experiences in the romantic department have not been the best ones. That's why, ever since my last experience, I decided that I would not fall for someone else again for quite some time. This has not changed so far, but there's a friend who is trying to change that vision in me. I understand, since love is part of our lives. But the fear of hurting others and of being hurt is present. The scars are still there and I'm not sure if they will completely heal. My measures have not been the best, but I have avoided any chance of falling for someone... until recently that this friend is starting to intervene.

 

I'm not sure if I should be denying the attempts to help, or if I should simply let said friend try. The intentions are not bad and I kinda understand the concern. But then again, I'm not sure if I'm ready to open myself just yet.

[rikakim94]

 

Huh? wow... that bad huh?

 

Well, I'm technically already in one of those (NS, hahahaha), but I'm not the type to retaliate, so I don't think you'll need to worry. Thanks for sharing this with me, though. :)

 

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Is it true that there are some things that we cannot change no matter how hard we try? Maybe so... some are good and some are bad. Yet in spite of that, we keep fighting and we keep trying to change them.

 

My previous experiences in the romantic department have not been the best ones. That's why, ever since my last experience, I decided that I would not fall for someone else again for quite some time. This has not changed so far, but there's a friend who is trying to change that vision in me. I understand, since love is part of our lives. But the fear of hurting others and of being hurt is present. The scars are still there and I'm not sure if they will completely heal. My measures have not been the best, but I have avoided any chance of falling for someone... until recently that this friend is starting to intervene.

 

I'm not sure if I should be denying the attempts to help, or if I should simply let said friend try. The intentions are not bad and I kinda understand the concern. But then again, I'm not sure if I'm ready to open myself just yet.

 

yeah no matter what we try to defend there will be people who will try to bring you down in what you like or believe in and its also hard to change a bad behavior towards others who may not like what you believe in. This goes for religion,sex,race and media.

 

Thank you for understanding i just wanted check my pairing tag for the fun of it and nostalgia, but it just got ruined by people who want us to feel bad for shipping that didn't happen or make us look weak. its just frustrating....

[James S Cassidy]

10% luck
20% skill
15% concentrated power of will
5% pleasure
50% pain
100% reason to remember the name

[Shadow Wolf]

yeah no matter what we try to defend there will be people who will try to bring you down in what you like or believe in and its also hard to change a bad behavior towards others who may not like what you believe in. This goes for religion,sex,race and media.
 
Thank you for understanding i just wanted check my pairing tag for the fun of it and nostalgia, but it just got ruined by people who want us to feel bad for shipping that didn't happen or make us look weak. its just frustrating....

We can't change the behavior of others unless they are willing to do so. However, we can be good people ourselves. So whatever they do, don't forget that no one can change you either, but you can be respectful unlike them. :)

Funnily enough, it would actually be cool to have the original director write his thoughts about it, don't you think?
 

10% luck
20% skill
15% concentrated power of will
5% pleasure
50% pain
100% reason to remember the name

Heh.. one of my favorite songs.




I just woke up.... so I'll be back in a few mins to update this. Not much going on, but I guess I can write a few things.

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 08 June 2013 - 01:38 PM.

[Shadow Wolf]

OK, so after a few minutes of finally waking up and the usual stuff (shower, brushing teeth and of course, cofee), let's see how can I update this:

-My main concern at the moment is the low amount of days I've been working. With a decreased production in summertime for the company I work in, I've been working barely two days a week, adding the earnings to barely $120. Considering that I spend half of that in my rent, you can imagine why I am not happy for the income at the moment. Thus I am already in the process of finding a new job. Hope it goes well.

-Apart from work, there's really not much worrying me. Except for what I mentioned in my previous post about handling my romantic life, now not only one, but two of my friends are encouraging me to improve, hehehe. To go that far for a friend... how can you not be grateful and value them?

-And on a fun-creepy note, of of Gaby's friends came to visit yesterday. He remained at the entrance of my room for the whole conversation because he said that he saw someone standing a feet or two behind me. Funny because I didn't feel any presence whatsoever, though who knows. Maybe I got use to it and didn't even notice. Whatever the case, I'll be on my watch.

I think that's pretty much it. If anything, then AMA.

Well then, time to take care of some stuff and then... a surprise awaits.

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 09 June 2013 - 05:15 AM.

[Konohakitten]

Well I'm sure you'll find a better job, trust me something will pop up sooner then you know As for your romance life it's summer remember  and your friends are really great for helping out too. I'm really interested in your last little update there, looks like you have someone hanging around you, hmmm wonder who it can be 

Edited by Konohakitten, 09 June 2013 - 03:09 AM.

[Shadow Wolf]

Well I'm sure you'll find a better job, trust me something will pop up sooner then you know As for your romance life it's summer remember  and your friends are really great for helping out too. I'm really interested in your last little update there, looks like you have someone hanging around you, hmmm

wonder who it can be 

 

Heheh, I will hope so too. I wouldn't normally worry about it, but bills will not wait to be paid, so I think its time to go look for work somewhere else.

 

Hehehe... Summer... Yeah, I remember.

 

Friends are always there to help each other. Then again, I can be a bit stubborn sometimes. Let's see how it goes XD

 

And I have to ask, do you make allusion to the "spirit", or do you refer to something else?

 

And btw, how have you been Lynette? ^_^

 

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

[Konohakitten]

 

Heheh, I will hope so too. I wouldn't normally worry about it, but bills will not wait to be paid, so I think its time to go look for work somewhere else.

 

Hehehe... Summer... Yeah, I remember.

 

Friends are always there to help each other. Then again, I can be a bit stubborn sometimes. Let's see how it goes XD

 

And I have to ask, do you make allusion to the "spirit", or do you refer to something else?

 

And btw, how have you been Lynette? ^_^

 

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

 

 

I'm doing just peachy Louis and Im a little confused at what youre asking me, can you explain it a little more in detail cause Im lost lol.

[Shadow Wolf]

 

 

I'm doing just peachy Louis and Im a little confused at what youre asking me, can you explain it a little more in detail cause Im lost lol.

 

That's good! Oh, and sorry for confusing you. Let me re-organize my words:

 

 

I'm really interested in your last little update there, looks like you have someone hanging around you, hmmm wonder who it can be 

 

I've been wondering to what are you referring to on this part of your reply.

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 09 June 2013 - 05:13 AM.

[Konohakitten]

Just saying that I'm rather curious when it comes to who's following you around, perhaps you have a clue who it might be? I can find out, but that would be me being nosy XD and I don't want to pry.

[Shadow Wolf]

Just saying that I'm rather curious when it comes to who's following you around, perhaps you have a clue who it might be? I can find out, but that would be me being nosy XD and I don't want to pry.

 

Its alright. I trust you, so no need to worry about prying or anything. I might have an idea, but I'm not sure. I'll contact you for detals. :)

[James S Cassidy]

I have come to an understanding.

I just don't understand why people give up on love only after one bad relationship. I understand, yet I don't at the same time. I've been through several and yet I kept going, so it is unnerving to me to see people give up after only one. How? Do you give up on a job after only one interview? Do you give up on life because of one misfortune? So why give up on love after only one attempt? I get the pain, but pain is apart of life. It helps us appreciate it more when we finally do get it.

[A] strong man who has known power all his life, may lose respect for that power, but a weak man knows the value of strength, and knows compassion.
- Erskine (Captain America)

All the times of losing, helps you appreciate it even more, yet I see so many say that love is useless. Perhaps that is the problem. Until they start to appreciate love, they will never know what it means to be in it.

This is why I am irked by people who give up so easily. No one can be that weak. You're only weak if you let yourself become weak. This was something I found philosophy in it. Because I hardly knew true love, I learn to appreciate love even more and how important it is. Sex appeal alone means nothing. People should strive for better relationships than just giving up on them entirely.

So I ask all the time, do you give up on life because something doesn't go your way? If you don't, why give up on love so easily? True love and happiness is earned, not given. You need the bad to describe the good. You need the weak to describe strength. You need to fall to know when to rise. If everything was easy, then we never appreciate life for what it is and we grow dependent on luck alone.

[Shadow Wolf]

I have come to an understanding.

I just don't understand why people give up on love only after one bad relationship. I understand, yet I don't at the same time. I've been through several and yet I kept going, so it is unnerving to me to see people give up after only one. How? Do you give up on a job after only one interview? Do you give up on life because of one misfortune? So why give up on love after only one attempt? I get the pain, but pain is apart of life. It helps us appreciate it more when we finally do get it.

[A] strong man who has known power all his life, may lose respect for that power, but a weak man knows the value of strength, and knows compassion.
- Erskine (Captain America)

All the times of losing, helps you appreciate it even more, yet I see so many say that love is useless. Perhaps that is the problem. Until they start to appreciate love, they will never know what it means to be in it.

This is why I am irked by people who give up so easily. No one can be that weak. You're only weak if you let yourself become weak. This was something I found philosophy in it. Because I hardly knew true love, I learn to appreciate love even more and how important it is. Sex appeal alone means nothing. People should strive for better relationships than just giving up on them entirely.

So I ask all the time, do you give up on life because something doesn't go your way? If you don't, why give up on love so easily? True love and happiness is earned, not given. You need the bad to describe the good. You need the weak to describe strength. You need to fall to know when to rise. If everything was easy, then we never appreciate life for what it is and we grow dependent on luck alone.

 

I can't say that this applies to me, because in all honesty, I have never been in a relationship. As much as I would like to say that someone corresponded my feelings even once, I have come to the realization that this may have not been the truth. As such I believe I have never been in a relationship. Now, why do I feel like I'm not ready to open up myself just yet (emphasis on "just yet")? I can summarize it in two simple reasons:

 

A-One negative side to having an outstanding memory is that many events are recalled easily over and over again. In my case, three different heartbreaks, each time getting worse and worse. Yes, this is over and yes, I must move on from these events, but my memory recalls them once more whenever I expect it less. A bad thing? Of course! But it happens; that's why it is of no surprise that people say that "the past comes back to haunt us". Because of this, we develop a fear of doing the same thing again in the future.

 

Think of it like this: A boxer trains for his fights whenever the fights are settled. It undergoes a period of training and finally, it shows his skills in the ring. In his first fight, he loses in the 8th round. Is obvious that he needs to improve, so before the second fight is announced, he starts training. The training is done but in the second fight, he loses in the 6th round. At this point, he begins to wonder if there is something wrong. Continuing the training formula, but adding an extra measure (a more rigid and nutritional diet), he goes onto the third fight.... and he loses in the 5th round. With 3 loses under his record, it is obvious that, although he wants to box again, he has to sit down and think carefully not only of his training, but of everything related to it (choice of opponents, manager, training program and of course, himself).

 

This is pretty much how I can describe my case. Even though it may r it may not be my fault that the attempts to get into a relationship didn't work, I'm considering my situation carefully before trying to make this step again. I have been shot down three times, so I'm sure that there is something I need to improve first before trying again for a relationship. I haven't given up, but I want to make sure that I'm ready before considering this again.

 

B-And another thing is that, when we're still dealing over past feelings, we have more chances of making mistakes than when we are not dealing with these. This one's simple to explain really: you're still hurt over.remember past events and when you try to engage in present activity, the past disrupts your concentration. I remember an episode in "The Simpsons" which explains my point really nicely. It was an episode in where Flanders was trying to establish a new relationship, but he was making a mistake: he was comparing this love interest to his deceased wife, and thus, it was not bound to work. Why? Because he wasn't ready to accept a new love into his life.

 

Now don't get me wrong. If you ask me, I say that I'm ready to move on. However, There is one little detail that I have to work on before doing so, and I need at least a few more weeks before I can finally say that I'll be ready to take this step again.

 

I could also elaborate on a few reasons as to why I feel like I'm not ready to be in a relationship just yet (coughcashcough), but may of these points are debatable, and I have realized that everyone has a different approach to having a relationship.

 

My take is simple: if I can't take care of myself, I won't be able to take care of someone else. So that's my goal for this month. After that, everything will fall into place. :)

[James S Cassidy]

You can't live in fear forever....eventually you have to move on from it.

[Shadow Wolf]

You can't live in fear forever....eventually you have to move on from it.

 

Seems like you've also seen the "Ghost Rider" movie, eh? XD

 

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Aw man... today is one of those days where the internet runs so slow, you can go to the fridge, get something, return and a simple Naruto page has not loaded completely yet. >.<

 

...I feel a bit frustrated for people not replying to my PMs yet, so that means I need more sleep (3-6am)... ugh, but so difficult to go back to sleep when the sun is out. How do you guys pull it off?

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 12 June 2013 - 11:57 AM.

[T XD]

Try to relax in your bed by sleeping on your back. Don't think of anything. Sleep will come eventually. That's what I do XD

[James S Cassidy]

 

Seems like you've also seen the "Ghost Rider" movie, eh? XD

You know, I wasn't even thinking of that movie when writing that.

Hmmm, would it be better to say "Don't live day by day thinking you'll fail, instead live it like you are going to succeed."

Edited by James S Cassidy, 12 June 2013 - 05:07 PM.

[James S Cassidy]

And I to my pledged word am true, I shall not fail that rendezvous.

[Shadow Wolf]

You know, I wasn't even thinking of that movie when writing that.

Hmmm, would it be better to say "Don't live day by day thinking you'll fail, instead live it like you are going to succeed."

 

Hm? Good point!

 

Then again, you only fail at things you try, right? So you could say that I'm not afraid to fail, but afraid to try.

 

And in the end... I find myself trying again (well, not just now, but I'm overcoming that fear).

 

And I to my pledged word am true, I shall not fail that rendezvous.

 

We shall all have our meeting with Death, In the meantimt, hope we can be sure that we have no regrets before that meeting.

 

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What happens when you find someone who can see through you so easily, that you even feel so vulnerable around that person? It doesn't have to be a lover or anything. It can be a good friend, someone you've just met, or simply someone who you have known before, but that you're getting to speak closely with said person now.

 

In my life, only 3 people have been like this. And at the moment, I am recently befriending this 3rd person. Great friend and very understanding by the way. Then again, to find a person who can break your walls so easily... kinda reminds me of how Sakura and Naruto have this ability to know each other so well, they can pretty much be assertive towards each other.

 

In any case, it can be really impressive how our friends can help us become a better person. When you have not learned to open yourself to others, or when you open yourself to the wrong person, you fear opening yourself to others again.... however, when you open yourself to the right people... it can be a very pleasant moment full of gratitude.

 

So to you guys who have helped me over time and who have helped me learn so much... James, Lynette, Daniella... Thank you for putting up with me, hehehehehe. But seriously, I hope I can be as amazing as your guys are someday.

 

And to every other person who is reading this right now. Those three have been helping me a lot these last days so I had to mention them. However, many of you have also been a great influence in me. Looking up to you guys, sharing PMs and NS debates with you either on the forum or on the podcasts...you have been a great influence on me. Thank you for being who you are.

 

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

[Miiami]

 

Hm? Good point!

 

Then again, you only fail at things you try, right? So you could say that I'm not afraid to fail, but afraid to try.

 

And in the end... I find myself trying again (well, not just now, but I'm overcoming that fear).

 

 

We shall all have our meeting with Death, In the meantimt, hope we can be sure that we have no regrets before that meeting.

 

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What happens when you find someone who can see through you so easily, that you even feel so vulnerable around that person? It doesn't have to be a lover or anything. It can be a good friend, someone you've just met, or simply someone who you have known before, but that you're getting to speak closely with said person now.

 

In my life, only 3 people have been like this. And at the moment, I am recently befriending this 3rd person. Great friend and very understanding by the way. Then again, to find a person who can break your walls so easily... kinda reminds me of how Sakura and Naruto have this ability to know each other so well, they can pretty much be assertive towards each other.

 

In any case, it can be really impressive how our friends can help us become a better person. When you have not learned to open yourself to others, or when you open yourself to the wrong person, you fear opening yourself to others again.... however, when you open yourself to the right people... it can be a very pleasant moment full of gratitude.

 

So to you guys who have helped me over time and who have helped me learn so much... James, Lynette, Daniella... Thank you for putting up with me, hehehehehe. But seriously, I hope I can be as amazing as your guys are someday.

 

And to every other person who is reading this right now. Those three have been helping me a lot these last days so I had to mention them. However, many of you have also been a great influence in me. Looking up to you guys, sharing PMs and NS debates with you either on the forum or on the podcasts...you have been a great influence on me. Thank you for being who you are.

 

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

Yep, you got that right Shadow Wolfie, we're awesome and so are you. Now lets all hug and sing a sailor song:

Edited by Miiami, 25 June 2013 - 10:43 PM.