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[James S Cassidy]

I tried, man.

I tried so hard to help you on this journey you have been going through. With all the crap you put up with, I tried to keep you level headed.

You're always going to make mistakes, my friend. You say I am smart, yet I still make them myself. Mistakes in love. Mistakes in life. It all a learning experience. Sadness, smiles, laughs, and sorrows. We go through all of it, but be weary of letting it control you. You have the feelings, the feelings don't have you.

Don't give up, brother. Father Odin will guide you on every battlefield into great victory.

True failure is not in never succeeding, but in never trying.

[Shadow Wolf]

T XD: I'm glad that you consider me a good person T XD.

My blog entry may seem negative at first, but it is actually both a recap of what I learned last year (when I joined the forum on Feb. 11) and what I wish for everyone who has helped me learn what I know today. I'm actually quite happy to have met such wonderful people and I will always remember them. That's why I want to let them know that I'll always be here for them, even though I may have made a mistake or two in the past. And like James said: we are bound to make mistakes, but the important part is to learn from them and to never give up.

James: Don't feel like you've put up with me for nothing. On the contrary, you have been one of the most influential people in my life. At one point, I even considered erasing my existence from the forums. Yet your patience and your advices helped me realize that I have a home here. So yes, if I'm here today, forgiving myself for what I've done and thanking my friends for being there for me, is because of you man. And like you told me once:

"Don't waver. You just now got the strength to move on. You got the strength to find a better life. Don't waste it by going backwards. Don't waste everything you have fought for by trying to go back to what you were trying to escape from. There is no need to go back to the lion's den when the lion is already dead. Metaphorically speaking. My friend, you've already lived up and paid for the mistakes you have made. Time to move on. Time to forgive yourself and find other reasons to keep going. You don't need to keep taking the unnecessary punishment."

Again, my post may seem negative at first, but it is actually my way of saying that I'm happy to have such amazing friends and that I'll be here if anyone ever needs me. I'm not perfect, but if there is something I can do to help, I'll be glad to do it.

So hey, that friendship song... is for all the people who saved me from myself, to say it like that, which of course, includes you man.

So yeah, thanks for enduring me man. I honestly appreciate it.

[Shadow Wolf]

Heh... this day... well, I don't wish to talk much about it. I will, however, leave this piece that popped in my mind just few seconds ago. No, I'm not sad or anything. On the contrary, I'm quite happy since I don't have to spend money XD.

The day... again (haiku)

A day full of love
For everyone else but me
Forever alone.

[narulsaku]

what do ya mean lou?

[T XD]

Heh... this day... well, I don't wish to talk much about it. I will, however, leave this piece that popped in my mind just few seconds ago. No, I'm not sad or anything. On the contrary, I'm quite happy since I don't have to spend money XD.

The day... again (haiku)

A day full of love
For everyone else but me
Forever alone.

I sense a little bit of disappointment.

Don't make a condition to your life that you got to find someone to love and who love you back. Life doesn't depend on this one. Let it naturally occur or don't occur XD

Edited by T XD, 14 February 2013 - 02:03 PM.

[Shadow Wolf]

Ehh... what?

OK, let's see... would you like me to say what do I mean by my words, or by the haiku?

If its my words, is actually really simple: I'm happy that I don't have anyone special at the moment, since I'm in a tight spot right now (economically) and I wouldn't want her to feel disappointed or anything. Hope that makes sense.

As to why I don't want t talk about it... let's say that my opinion of St. Valentine is different.

Finally, the Haiku was something that popped in my mind when I remembered the "Forever Alone" meme, and how many people seem to use it these days. XD

Anyway, I'm a bit confused (probably since I just woke up and I didn't expect this reaction), so I'll ask as a favor that you ask me specifically, what do you wish me to explain?

[T XD]

Well, you explained pretty much everything.

You're right, and it seems that there's something positive when someone is in tight spot economically , and I guess everyone has different opinions of St.Valentine XD

[James S Cassidy]

You know what is worse than being alone? Having a terrible GF.

[Shadow Wolf]

T XD: Well, I'm glad. Sorry for the misunderstanding, though.

James: Heh... I guess you're right. Hope that doesn't happen anytime soon. XD

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7 hours of sleep and I wake up feeling like I was flattened, rolled up and tossed aside (cookie to the person who discovers the reference). Well, I guess that's a temporary feeling. Has it happened to you? You sleep more than you usually sleep and you wake up tired. But you sleep less and you wake up feeling OK.

Anyway, not much is happening at the moment. Glad I was able to keep my job (2 weeks ago I had a nasty virus which left me in bed all week, so I consider this a miracle), though things are getting difficult. Many people quit, so the remaining ones have to do even more work than before. Let's see how this goes...

As for me, not much either. I'm currently playing League of Legends and I'm beginning to play PVP (player vs player matches) to learn concepts that are not necessary for matches against AI. Some people are impatient when dealing with new players, but when you have friends who also play the game, you have the support to keep learning and improving.

And finally, I love the feeling I get when I can cheer someone up.

Well, that's pretty much it. Take care people.

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

[T XD]

Sleeping more, already happened to me like two months ago. When I begun my Christmas vacation, I started to sleep more. At the end, I started waking up at 1 or 2 PM noon 0_o. Though, when the vacation is finished, and when I need to wake up at 7 AM... OMG THE AGONY... I felt like a walking zombie . In class, I felt many times my eyelids closing slowly, lol. I still wake up late though. Guess because I'm tired and need more rest, or my sleeping pattern is changing XD. It happens to me the same as you, well, that's before but now, it's all reversed

Glad you kept your job. Plus, He/She/They shouldn't be thinking of firing you if you have been badly sick and couldn't go work , and hope there won't be a hell of work from the decreasing numbers of employee.

Same here XD. I love the feeling. Doesn't it feels like you did something great and that's if you weren't there, the person wouldn't be cheered up ? XD

Edited by T XD, 20 February 2013 - 09:22 PM.

[James S Cassidy]

See? I told you everything would be fine.

[Konohakitten]

T XD: Well, I'm glad. Sorry for the misunderstanding, though.

James: Heh... I guess you're right. Hope that doesn't happen anytime soon. XD

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7 hours of sleep and I wake up feeling like I was flattened, rolled up and tossed aside (cookie to the person who discovers the reference). Well, I guess that's a temporary feeling. Has it happened to you? You sleep more than you usually sleep and you wake up tired. But you sleep less and you wake up feeling OK.

This is the story of my life. I never get enough sleep and more often then not I'm always tired. Then on the rare occasion I get to sleep in still I wake up feeling more tired then the days I have little sleep XD What effects me the most is that I wake up multiple times a night to feed Gideon. Kaiden sleeps the whole night and sometimes sleeps in too, but Gideon is up at 7am D:
I'm glad you were able to keep your job and that you are doing much better health wise now!!

[Shadow Wolf]

T XD: Is kinda weird, right? Anyway, a fun fact was that, not too long ago, I slept exactly 9 hours and woke up actually feeling pretty good. So who knows, maybe I just need to sleep an exact amount of time, no more and no less.

Well, normally yeah. However, I have heard that bosses are strict on many jobs; and considering how strict (bad) my boss actually is, I consider it a miracle that I still have my job. I guess it was just a combination fo all the circumstances that actually helped me keep the job.

Indeed. Being there at the time when people need you the most, and being able to help them feel better is enough o make my day.

James: Hehehe, true; though I still consider it a miracle XD

Konohakitten: Well, I have to say that the fact that you are a mother and a wife makes me believe that you have to spend more energy than I could ever spend in a busy day. So I actually don't find it surprising that, even if you manage to sleep for a good amount of time, you wake up feeling like you need more rest (which actually makes me admire people like you: mothers, I mean).

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Is it weird that I consider this day to be just another day in my life?

Why do I ask this? Because it is actually my birthday (Feb. 24). I turn 24 years old today (man, time flies by fast) and this day passed by just like any other day, to be honest. Nah, I didn't want to eat any cake today because, again, I just see this day as another day in my life. So yeah, I wonder if I'm an odd one for not actually celebrating my birthday...

That aside, I had a lot of posts in my facebook account from many people, including family and friends (BTW, thanks for remembering Prem. I appreciate it. ), so I'm quite grateful that they took their time to write something and for remembering this day (even if facebook helped them a bit ).

Anyway, not much has been going on... except that I finally have a drumset to play Rock Band ( ), so time to rock and roll.

Well, that's is for now. Take care people!

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 25 February 2013 - 07:33 AM.

[Dragunov]

T XD: Is kinda weird, right? Anyway, a fun fact was that, not too long ago, I slept exactly 9 hours and woke up actually feeling pretty good. So who knows, maybe I just need to sleep an exact amount of time, no more and no less.

Well, normally yeah. However, I have heard that bosses are strict on many jobs; and considering how strict (bad) my boss actually is, I consider it a miracle that I still have my job. I guess it was just a combination fo all the circumstances that actually helped me keep the job.

Indeed. Being there at the time when people need you the most, and being able to help them feel better is enough o make my day.

James: Hehehe, true; though I still consider it a miracle XD

Konohakitten: Well, I have to say that the fact that you are a mother and a wife makes me believe that you have to spend more energy than I could ever spend in a busy day. So I actually don't find it surprising that, even if you manage to sleep for a good amount of time, you wake up feeling like you need more rest (which actually makes me admire people like you: mothers, I mean).

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Is it weird that I consider this day to be just another day in my life?

Why do I ask this? Because it is actually my birthday (Feb. 24). I turn 24 years old today (man, time flies by fast) and this day passed by just like any other day, to be honest. Nah, I didn't want to eat any cake today because, again, I just see this day as another day in my life. So yeah, I wonder if I'm an odd one for not actually celebrating my birthday...

That aside, I had a lot of posts in my facebook account from many people, including family and friends (BTW, thanks for remembering Prem. I appreciate it. ), so I'm quite grateful that they took their time to write something and for remembering this day (even if facebook helped them a bit ).

Anyway, not much has been going on... except that I finally have a drumset to play Rock Band ( ), so time to rock and roll.

Well, that's is for now. Take care people!

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

Happy birthday lonely wolf. Have some fun.

[T XD]

Happy Birthday Louis XD and wish you the best.

There's nothing wrong that you don't want to celebrate your birthday, and if it's just a like any other day for you. Actually, there's some I know that they don't want or like to do anything in their birthdays, including a close friend of mine XD. In the end, that's your desire for the day

Well, of course, your family and friends are going to wish you a happy day XD. That's one of the beauty of birthdays.

I'm imagining you playing drums with Rock music XD

Edited by T XD, 25 February 2013 - 08:17 PM.

[Shadow Wolf]

Dragunov: Thanks Sniper man.

T XD: Thank you. And yeah, is just something I'm used to. I'm not the party type so I end up feeling out of place in some celebrations. There are its exceptions, though.

Heh... and I guess your imagination is not too far from reality this time.

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Not feeling too good today. Is one of those days when I ask myself: What the hell were you thinking?

Nothing new going on, though.

Well... one thing. Talked with a friend whom I haven't spoken to in a long time and she seems to be doing well.

Meh... better go get some coffee. Maybe that might warm my day.

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

[Shadow Wolf]

"OK, so no more worries on this particular subject. It was just me jumping to conclusions... again XD"

Anyway, in order to not leave this empty, there is another thing which has left me thinking...

This week has been a total chaos at where I work. The boss has been really demanding lately and the employees are beginning to get tired of it. There are several things going on which are making everyone think that we are not being treated fairly as employees (one of them being the fact that the employees of the first shift are falling behind on their job and we are the ones who have to complete both their task and our own). There are a combination of things going on and today, it seems that both the boss and our supervisor were talking one-by-one with the permanent employees of the company (since I'm hired by an "outside" company, I'm pretty much a temporary employee). However, temporary employees are also getting tired of what's going on, and I fear that another massive wave of employees quitting the company happens again (the first wave happened when I was sick for a whole week).

I spoke to my supervisor about what's going on and I believe he was the one who prepared what happened today (contrary to our boss, our supervisor does care about what's going on. Of course, our boss is the one with the final word). Anyway, I expect to see some results tomorrow, but if things begin to get worse, I wonder what will be the consequences.

Dō shiyō? *ponders*

Louis (Shadow Wolf)

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 13 March 2013 - 04:01 AM.

[Shadow Wolf]

So... I'm breaking my head here trying to figure out a way to make a friend feel better, since I can't really meet her in person to pull some lame jokes or something to make her smile. Is kinda weird to ask here, but if you guys have advice, I'd really appreciate it.


EDIT: Nevermind! I couldn't do much.

That aside, the two-month curse strikes again... this is the 5th time now.

And in a final note, I believe I will be leaving the forums for a while. No, no worries, nothing is wrong. Is just that my activity has decreased significantly over the past months due to a series of events. Don't get me wrong, I do love this place. However, Usually when I log in, I don't really contribute much. Just drop by the fun cafe, explore some threads and lurk around, to say it like that. As such, I don't think there is much for me to contribute to the forums.

Not sure if my activity will rise in the future, but just in case, I will say that I'm grateful for the fun conversations I had with many people and for the friends I made here. Take care you guys, OK?

Well, that's it! Sayonara!

Howling at the Moon

Shadow Wolf

Edited by Shadow Wolf, 02 April 2013 - 03:57 AM.

[James S Cassidy]

Bark at the moooon

[T XD]

Hi Louis. Any news about life ? XD

Edited by T XD, 04 May 2013 - 08:44 AM.